boo hiss.
the past couple days have kinda sucked!!! people pissed me off... but what can you do... it's just time to start fresh.
all in all. i hate my life.
you know what sucks more than anything? Finding someone in life that truly could make you happy... who you would love to just spend hours on end with... just talking to, someone who you could just kiss forever... because that first kiss felt so right... and then finding out that they have those feelings too... towards someone else. So you try and fight those feelings back... until finally... you give up on fighting it... and just live with it. I hate living with this feeling. I hate this stupid love triangle... I hate myself for that one night... i hate the fact that jd is always right. I hate the way that i look at you... while you look at her in the same way... as she looks at him... I hate the butterflies i get in my stomache when i'm around you. I hate how your smile is contagious... I hate wanting you so bad it hurts sometimes. What I hate most of all is that I know nothing will ever change.
I guess I just had to get this all off of my chest. On a happier note... I'm getting WASTED this weekend. And i seriously can't wait. I need a vacation from the bullshit... I get to be crazy... no limits, no morals mona again. Watch out... seriously... it's on. :o)
*just know... I am never able to say everything I am really thinking about... and everything I'm feeling. And when it comes to you, this is the closest I've ever gotten to being as open as I can.
all in all. i hate my life.
you know what sucks more than anything? Finding someone in life that truly could make you happy... who you would love to just spend hours on end with... just talking to, someone who you could just kiss forever... because that first kiss felt so right... and then finding out that they have those feelings too... towards someone else. So you try and fight those feelings back... until finally... you give up on fighting it... and just live with it. I hate living with this feeling. I hate this stupid love triangle... I hate myself for that one night... i hate the fact that jd is always right. I hate the way that i look at you... while you look at her in the same way... as she looks at him... I hate the butterflies i get in my stomache when i'm around you. I hate how your smile is contagious... I hate wanting you so bad it hurts sometimes. What I hate most of all is that I know nothing will ever change.
I guess I just had to get this all off of my chest. On a happier note... I'm getting WASTED this weekend. And i seriously can't wait. I need a vacation from the bullshit... I get to be crazy... no limits, no morals mona again. Watch out... seriously... it's on. :o)
*just know... I am never able to say everything I am really thinking about... and everything I'm feeling. And when it comes to you, this is the closest I've ever gotten to being as open as I can.