I don't really know anymore.
I'm a mess... I try not to be... but I am. I do stupid things and make stupid decisions... I say yes when I really am thinking no. I do the things I don't wanna do.... I push people away... the ones I REALLY want to be around... And.. I'm sorry. Yes... I mean YOU... I am truly sorry... I know it's not your fault I'm the way I am....