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ok so i am gonna pull the whole venting deal right now. slept well, but the rain woke me at like 6 am. and i had a hell of a time falling back asleep. i don't even know why i do this all to myself. it's over. before it even began. i need that job. so i'm going to go see Barry at CWS and give him a resume. maybe i can be a warehouse monkey again. whatever, the money is pretty good. not as good as i had lst summer. but i'll get by. fuck. stupid finality of death. "they came back and found him swinging in his closet". argh. i'll see him one last time tommorow. then he'll be gone forever. and i'll only have the memories and stories we'll tell each other. at least there will be plenty. everyone knew that kid. wtf. not gonna go camping i dont' think. no one is trying to organize something. it's all gonna be up to me. again. screw it. i'm gonna play ultimate and cruise with matt instead. maybe get lit and jump off a house or something retarded. last night was nice to see amanda and alex again. nintendo and slurpees. i rule at bust a move. cause well i rule. *grin* man, school starts in like 6 days. i don't want to go back. at least i'll be done soon. and i can start putting money together to head out on those trips. lets see. edmonton, ottawa, portland (hopefully). i can't afford much. nor do i have the desire or insentive to try and go anywhere else. except maybe minnesota. but then again trying to plan a time that natalie would be around would be tough. i would go to Big Valley, but it's in july, right in the middle of my semester. that ain't gonna fly. maybe teh deal down in montana. that would be good times. but i doubt it. i'll just end up broke ass and lost. well must be off. big day, shower, shave, job hunt, work, and all that other good stuff. i wonder if Vanny will wanna hang out tonight...
-mk-
-mk-