today was a really cool day, and then it got worse.
i went out with ruth today, that was really fun. we wwalked around the city, and then went to the moon festival thing. it was fun, we saw alphonse.
i feel like im gonna faint i dont know why. i just feel really dizzy, and everything is blurry.
well, the hurricane thing is hitting right where my grandparents live... that sucks.
uhm my brother is at the beach...his friend might die from a skateboarding accident.. and i find that really scary. is it just me? or is everyone like..."wow if jessies brother wasnt at the beach hed be out skating with his friend and that could have been him" i dunnno..i hope hes okay..
i really feel like crying, i feel like everything is going wrong...
my grandparents being where the storm is really dangerous, my brothers friend might die, im a big mess...i duno i feel like life is wrong.
ive never done drugs in my life, and yet im totaly brain damaged for no reason and the kids at my school who are just over all druggies there is nothing wrong.
and i also feel that if i wasnt me more people would like me. i feel like if someone else had asked if yuou could stay over theyd be like sure...but since i was acting really dead and looked like i was stoned i dont think she wanted her to.
people are really quick to judge...
life is so much easier when you dont have to worry about aanything, but i cant help it. everything is wrong. i need a hug, i need someone to hold me and tell me everything will be okay. i want them to be like "Jessie, everything is fine. Nothing bad is going to happen. Don't worry, I'm here." i want that right now more than anything.
i need sleep, maybe i wont wake up tommorow. i just need a break from the nothing i am.
im nothing.
today isnt even worthy of a broken heart.
im still nothing, jessie.
i feel like im gonna faint i dont know why. i just feel really dizzy, and everything is blurry.
well, the hurricane thing is hitting right where my grandparents live... that sucks.
uhm my brother is at the beach...his friend might die from a skateboarding accident.. and i find that really scary. is it just me? or is everyone like..."wow if jessies brother wasnt at the beach hed be out skating with his friend and that could have been him" i dunnno..i hope hes okay..
i really feel like crying, i feel like everything is going wrong...
my grandparents being where the storm is really dangerous, my brothers friend might die, im a big mess...i duno i feel like life is wrong.
ive never done drugs in my life, and yet im totaly brain damaged for no reason and the kids at my school who are just over all druggies there is nothing wrong.
and i also feel that if i wasnt me more people would like me. i feel like if someone else had asked if yuou could stay over theyd be like sure...but since i was acting really dead and looked like i was stoned i dont think she wanted her to.
people are really quick to judge...
life is so much easier when you dont have to worry about aanything, but i cant help it. everything is wrong. i need a hug, i need someone to hold me and tell me everything will be okay. i want them to be like "Jessie, everything is fine. Nothing bad is going to happen. Don't worry, I'm here." i want that right now more than anything.
i need sleep, maybe i wont wake up tommorow. i just need a break from the nothing i am.
im nothing.
today isnt even worthy of a broken heart.
im still nothing, jessie.