eight » haven't slept in years.

[__theodore]

I can't handle this. My emotions have been like a roller coaster lately. I think I need help before I have some sort of breakdown and like, die. I stayed up all night last night just thinking and listening to him breathe and watching him sleep. I really feel so ... alone.
It feels like all the happiness I've ever known is gone and won't be

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[mr_bzabini]

[Private to Nott]

This is stupid.

[/Private]

Theodore/Blaise. Theoblaise? Blatheo? Only.

[__theodore]

I know.

Private to Theo

[mr_bzabini]

Then, why is it happening, If we both know it's stupid?

Private to Blaise.

[__theodore]

I don't know.

Private to Theo

[mr_bzabini]

I want to flail.

I'm frustrated.

Private to Blaise.

[__theodore]

Sorry.

Private to Theo

[mr_bzabini]

Don't apologise.

Private to Blaise.

[__theodore]

What do you want from me, then?

Private to Theo

[mr_bzabini]

What don't I want from you more like.

Private to Blaise.

[__theodore]

Which is?

Private to Theo

[mr_bzabini]

Me to make you confused. Or me to fuck about. Or me to be an arse. Or me to basically be me.

Private to Blaise.

[__theodore]

... Do you regret what we did?

Private to Theo

[mr_bzabini]

No!

Do you?

Private to Blaise.

[__theodore]

Of course not.

Private to Theo

[mr_bzabini]

What's the problem then?

Private to Blaise.

[__theodore]

I shouldn't have expected/hoped for anything to happen back here at school.