May 07, 2007 20:11
dont you hate when people you know..
turn into people you knew?
or the fact that everything is always YOUR fault.
cause i swear everything that goes wrong for anyone in this world is my fault. i'm the only fuck up in the world? i'm the only one who makes mistakes. i'm the only one who's done something totally crazy that they want to take it back but can't; while everyone around them continously talks about it to the point where you don't want ot be around them... but laugh and smile so they dont know that its bugging you.
where is my reset button? could anyone possibly help me out with that, i want to take it back, take it all back.
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take it back take it all back now
the things i gave
like the taste of my kiss on your lips
i miss that now
i can't try any harder than i do
all reason i gave
excuses i made for you
have broken in two
all the things left undiscovered
leave me empty and left to wonder
i need you, all the things left undicovered
leave me waiting and left to wonder
i need you, yeah i need you
dont walk away
touch me how i wanna feel
something so real
please remind me
my love, and take me back
cause i'm so in love
with what we were
i'm not breathing
i'm sufforcating, without you
do you feel it too?
all the things undiscovered
leave me waiting and left to wonder
i need you
all the things undiscovered
leave me empty and left to wonder
i need you, yeah i need you
when i'm in the dark and all alone
dreaming that you'll walk right through my door
its then that i know my heaart is whole
theres a million reasons why i cry
hold my covers tight and close my eyes
cause i dont wanna be alone
all the things undiscovered
leave me waiting and left to wonder
i need you
all the things left undiscovered
leave me waiting and left to wonder
i need you, i need you
cause i can't fake
and i can't hate
but its my heart
thats about to break
your all i need
i'm on knees
watch me bleed
would you listen please
i give in
i breathe out
i want you
theres no doubt
i freak out
im left out
without you im without
im crossed out
im kicked out
i cry out
i reach out
dont walk away
dont walk away
dont walk away
dont walk away....
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are aware of what you make me feel baby
right now i feel invisible to you
like i'm real
didn't you feel my lock my arms around you
why'd you turn away
heres what i have to say
i was left to cry there
waiting outside there
grinning with the lost air
thats when i decided
why should i care?
you weren't there
when i was scared
i was so alone
you, you need to listen
i'm starting to trip
i'm losing my grip
and i'm in this thing along
am i just some chick
you placed beside you
to take somebodies place
when you turn around
can you recognize my face
you use to love me
you use to hug me
but that wasn't the case
everything wasn't okay
i was left to cry there
waiting outside there
grinning with the lost air
thats when i decided
why should i care?
you weren't there
when i was scared
i was so alone
you, you need to listen
i'm starting to trip
i'm losing my grip
and i'm in this thing along
crying out loud
i'm crying out loud
crying out loud
i'm crying out loud
open your eyes
open up wide
why should i care?
if you don't care
then i don't care
where not going anywhere.
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so much for my happy ending
so much for my happy ending
lets talk this over
its not like were dead
was it something i did
was it something you said
dont leave me hanging
in a city so dead
held up so high
on such a breakable thread
you were all the things i thought i knew
and i thought we could be
you were everything, everything that i wanted
we were meant to be, supposed to be but we lost it
all the memories so close to me just fade away
all this time you were pretending
so much for my happy ending
so much for my happy ending
you've got your dumb friends
i know what they say
they tell you i'm difficult but so are they
but they dont know me
do they even know you
all the things you hide me
all the shit that you do.
you were all the things i thought i knew
and i thought we could be
you were everything, everything that i wanted
we were meant to be, supposed to be but we lost it
all the memories so close to me just fade away
all this time you were pretending
so much for my happy ending
so much for my happy ending
its nice to know that you were there
thanks for acting like you cared
and making me feel like i was the only one
its nice to know we had it all
thanks for watching as i fall
and letting me know we were done
he was everything, everything that i wanted
we were meant to be supposed to be
but we lost it
all the memories so close to me just fade away
all this time you were pretending
so much for my happy ending
you were everything, everything that i wanted
we were meant to be supposed to be
but we lost it
all the memories so close to me just fade away
all this time you were pretending
so much for my happy ending
so much for my happy ending
so much for my happy ending
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this time this place
misused, mistakes
too long, too late
who was i to make you wait
just one chance
just one breath
just incase there's just one left
cause you know, you know, you know
i love you
i've loved you all along
and i miss you.
been far away
for far too long
i keep dreaming
you'll be with me
and you'll never go
stop breathing
if i dont see you anymore
on my knees
i'll ask
last chance for one last dance
cause with you
i'd withstand
all of hell to hold your hand
i'd give it all
i did for us
give anything
but i wont give up
cause you know, you know, you know
i love you
i've loved you all along
and i miss you
been far away for far too long
i keep dreaming
you'll be with me
if you never go
stop breathing if i dont see you anymore.
so far away
so far away
been far away for far too long
so far away
so far away
been far away for far too long
but you know, you know, you know
i wanted, i wanted you to stay
cause i needed
i need to hear you say
that i love you
i've loved you all along
and forgive you
for being away for far too long
so keep breathing
cause i'm not leaving you anymore
believe it, hold on to me
and never let me go.
keep breathing
cause i'm not leaving you anymore
believe it, hold on to me
and never let me go.
keep breathing
hold on to me, never let me go
keep breathing
hold on to me, never let me go.
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baby tell me where'd you ever learn
to fight without saying a word
then waltz back into my life
like its all gunna be alright
dont you know how much it hurts
when we dont talk,
when we dont touch,
when it doesn't feel like were even in love
it matters to me
when i dont know what to say
when i dont know what to do
dont know if it really even matters to you
how can i make see
it matters to me
baby i still dont understand
the distance between a woman and a man
so tell me how far it is
and you can love like this
cause i'm not sure i can
when we dont talk
when we dont touch
when it doesn't feel like were even in love
it matters to me
when i dont know what to say
don't know what to do
don't know if it really even matters to you
how can i make you see
it matters to me.
when i dont know what to say
don't know what to do
dont know if it really even matters to you
how can i make you see
oh it matters to me
oh it matters to me
it matters to me.
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i've been sitting here
trying to find myself
i get behind myself
i need to rewind myself
looking for the payback
listen for the playback
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bahhhh yeah idk, i was reading old journal entries and was reading about how i said i'd never get over derek. and i started to think about him a little bit and how i kind of miss him. but too bad he's in texas with his baby &baby mama. but it made me realize that i'll be fine. it just takes time. besides sitting here admitting that i still want den is probably making him happy and feel proud of himself. so here is a song that will help pass that feeling by.
state the obvious
i didn't my perfect fantasy
i realize you love yourself
more than you could ever love me
so go and tell your friends
that i'm obsessive and crazy
thats fine i'll tell mine your gay
[chorus] - and by the way
i hate that stupid old pickup truck
you never let me drive
your a redneck heartbreak
whos really bad at lying
so watch me strike a match
on all my wasted time
as far as i'm concered
your just another picture to burn -
theres my time for tears
and just sitting here planning my revenge
theres not stopping me
from going out with all your bestfriends
and if you come around saying sorry to me
my daddys gunna show you how sorry you'll be
[[[chorus]]]
and if your missin me
you better keep it to yourself
cause comin back around here
would be bad for your health
[[[chorus x2]]]
burn burn burn baby burn
another picture to burn
baby burn.
**whatever i'm done ranting. i'll probably post another one later.