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It only feels bad when you compare me with someone else…and it seems like you do it all the time. I’m sorry I wont kiss you its something that I’m trying to work on.. And I don’t know what it is that makes me stop because I like you so much and even the thought of you either brings a smile on my face or makes me want too cry! You haven’t hurt me in anyway I just care a lot about your opinion and your way more open about your opinion than I would have been expecting you embarrass me all the time and sometimes I don’t mind but if its about certain stuff omg I just want to turn bright red because I feel so stupid I’m thinking that’s one of the reasons why I wont kiss you I’m so nervous that you will say something that will make me turn bright red like saying that you think I’m bad or something stupid like that… I’m just weird about those kind of things and you get mad because you know I have kissed other people without having a problem with it but I didn’t feel for those people like I feel when I’m with you.. Ill tell you one thing no matter how long or how “serious” me n you get I’m still probably not the girl you are looking for I’m NOT going down your pants and your most likely not getting down mine… yeah you can make fun of me or say anything you want about it but that’s me I’m not like that I am really weird about stuff like this and you obviously have a big problem with it. I never know what’s going on with you that prolly why I should talk to you more often I never know if we are on or off and if we are off please stop leading me on I hate hearing about people you think are hot especially if she’s one of my very closest friends…that you were flirting with the night before I’m not going to change your mind about anything because I don’t like chasing after things so I’m not always going to chase after you or make sure you are pleased in every single way possible because I’m not like that I think that you have to make yourself happy and not rely on other people… you know? I’ve tried probably like 10 million times just to get over you and move on because I thought it would be easier.. But its not I cant get passed the fact that yeah, you make me really happy no one else can make me smile like you and yeah some of my friends don’t like you and usually I would prolly listen to them and agree but with you its different
As of right now I don’t think you are feeling the way that I am I want to be with you and I want everything to be perfect again but I’m not sure that your totally over your old girlfriend and I don’t want to be used just to help you get passed that…
I believe most of what anyone tells me so be careful what you say I hate being screwed over…
Please don’t take this the wrong way because I like you soo much like its crazy but I really don’t think that you are feeling the same way and just let me know…
Thanks…
I love you.