for.. you.. lex
yeah yesterday was alright.. i guess
i went to the mall thinking that it would be wonderful! a very fun time with my friends you know... and for the most part i was very happy to see lex again it was nice, no matter how terrible i was to him .. i guess?
now I know exactly what love is
Love is not a feeling
Like butterflies in your stomach or something
Love is a decision
When you're in a relationship, and something goes wrong, the feeling never goes away;
It's just you deciding not to love that person anymore
If love were a feeling, it would be easy, and would never cause any problems
When you're happy, you don't choose to be happy
Love is much different, you dont choose to be in love, because it can't just happen to you
^ if you know what love it than why do you take every second of it for granted? you say it to more than one person and i personaly dont think you could love more than one person at a time ...i guess ive said it to more than one person i will admit that but i dont say it to 2 people at once...
last night seriously was one of the BEST times i have ever had at the mall seriously but then you had to make it into something bad and YES its my fault i dont "appreciate" you ? i think its the other way around i have to change around you, you always have something rude to say to me and i usually dont care but the more and more i think about it you are one of the meanest people to me ever! i dont know anyone else who can make me want to cry quite like you can...i have tried to brush you off and move on but YES of course i still like you knowing that its prolly not going to work out.. is okay because just being around you puts a smile on my face but you always make me feel like crying i seriously dont know how bad i am to you and if it really is that bad please let me know because i have never ever tried hurting you but you make it seem like i am the worst person ever and i just dont understand it
you say you dont get me but im not that hard to figure out if you just look and find more stuff about me you dont know me that well as much as you think you know.. you still think that i should tell you everything about me when im telling you.. your just not listening and it doesnt seem like you even care anymore...
you have alot of work to do and you have alot of fixing to do i want to be "cool" with you and have nothing to worry about but i keep messing up and you wont let me know what im doing wrong... and i think thats because i really havent done anything wrong
stop making me do all the work you have to put a little more into it too
i am hating on you right now but still loving you at the same time your the only one im thinking about and im not saying it to anyone else besides my girly friends...
figure things out.. and let me know
thanks bye