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I feel like I am at a crossroads with no clue on which way to go.
There is a woman that I have been friends with for a couple of years now. I love her (in a non-romantic way) and I totally respect her. Having her as a friend has been a huge + in my life. Up to a certain point in time, I felt that we had this close connection and we could confide in one another about anything: from the sad to the silly. Everything was going really groovy.
Then about nine months ago, this friend started hanging out with another group for the first time. No big deal because we all have our own circles of friends. This is different though. At first it was nothing but gradually over time she has been spending more and more time with them. Okay, fine, but I also feel like we are drifting further and further apart now and that scares me. We do talk and hang out sometimes and she has told me she loves talking with me, but it isn't the same to me. I feel like such a burden now that I am trying to distance myself from her a little because I don't want to bother her. It pains me though considering how often she has told me before in the past that she loves me and thanks me for our continued friendship. If that is the case then why do I feel like crying because I feel like I am losing her to these friends?
I know she can not spend all of her time with me and I wouldn't want her too. But I am very torn and very hurt by feeling like I am not important to her anymore. I want to tell her how I feel, how much she means to me, how much I look up to her, and how much I fear that I am losing her....... but how should I go about doing this or am I just being a whiny jealous bitch about it?
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There is a woman that I have been friends with for a couple of years now. I love her (in a non-romantic way) and I totally respect her. Having her as a friend has been a huge + in my life. Up to a certain point in time, I felt that we had this close connection and we could confide in one another about anything: from the sad to the silly. Everything was going really groovy.
Then about nine months ago, this friend started hanging out with another group for the first time. No big deal because we all have our own circles of friends. This is different though. At first it was nothing but gradually over time she has been spending more and more time with them. Okay, fine, but I also feel like we are drifting further and further apart now and that scares me. We do talk and hang out sometimes and she has told me she loves talking with me, but it isn't the same to me. I feel like such a burden now that I am trying to distance myself from her a little because I don't want to bother her. It pains me though considering how often she has told me before in the past that she loves me and thanks me for our continued friendship. If that is the case then why do I feel like crying because I feel like I am losing her to these friends?
I know she can not spend all of her time with me and I wouldn't want her too. But I am very torn and very hurt by feeling like I am not important to her anymore. I want to tell her how I feel, how much she means to me, how much I look up to her, and how much I fear that I am losing her....... but how should I go about doing this or am I just being a whiny jealous bitch about it?
x-posted in hopes of getting a variety of advice