Attitude is a must on our endless flight!
Carlos and I have made a pact and pinky promised to stop smoking pot until he finds a job. The reason why I'm stopping is because I need to save my money and I need to get back in shape, since I've been smoking I've been so lazy and I've gained like ten pounds. We were on cid the other night and he started to open up to me about his depression and how he's going nowhere in life. The only thing I could say is, stop smoking, how do you expect to find a job? How do you expect to save any money to move out of your parent's house? We talked about finding ways to feel good and to be productive to avoid the feeling of boredom. So we're going to work on a couple of projects. We're helping his parents clean out the garage(it's ridiculous how crammed it is with junk) and we're going to have a yard sale. He just finished cleaning out his room, we threw out about 12 bags of garbage and recyclables. I cannot even believe that someone can live so filthy like that, I mean I'm not insane about cleanliness, but his room was filled with worthless shit, it was nasty. He wants to get into meditation and I told him the first step to meditating is having a clean peaceful space. It's kinda cute though he's really excited about having his room really clean. We cleaned out all of his drawers and dusted and wiped all of his furniture down. It was fun, plus I found a bunch of pictures of his ex girlfriends ha ha, which is kind of weird I don't have any pictures of my exes, it made me feel a little insecure at first, but he told me he only keeps them as memories because he's got a terrible memory and object and pictures help one remember. I agree, even though I have an amazing memory ha ha. So this is good, he's feeling a lot better, its amazing what a clean room can do to someones self-esteem. He told me he feels very productive and doesn't think about smoking weed anymore. I've been such a supportive girlfriend and I hope he realizes all that I do for him, seeing him happy means a lot to me. These past couple of days we've been spending a lot of time together, QUALITY time together, not just sitting around getting high and watching TV, but having real conversations about life. I was falling out of love for him because I had no respect for him anymore. He made me feel insecure, because he wasn't secure at all. Using the money your parents give you to buy weed isn't fucking cool, it's lame as fuck, and that's how I was feeling about him, I was seeing him as a loser. He's off to a really good start and I have faith in him. I guess I'll just have to see what happens, but he's made his promise already and I trust him with my life.
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