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okay so nothing really bad happened last night. I think I have some really weird paranoia thing.
maybe its just driving with my friend chris. he goes so fast it drives me insane.
the show was really fun last night. it was so insane. people were being thrown across the room and punched in the face and omg it was just so funny. If I was a guy I definitely would've gone into that crazy mosh pit but I'm way too wussy to do that lol I'd get trampled.
and that feeling that I wrote about yesterday.. it got worse. I need to talk to a professional or something cause I feel like I'm going insane. I feel so empty, like there's nothing for me to look forward to. Things are going NOWHERE with the boy I like and I don't know why. I don't know if I want them to. I have no idea what I want. is is possible to have a crisis of faith at the age of 16? I didn't think it was. I feel really numb too. Like 2 weeks ago I felt amazing about this guy, I couldn't wait to see him and he just gave me the "feeling" thats just amazing. and now it just faded away. after a WEEK? is that possible? damn it's so annoying. I need something to make me feel alive, I'm sick of feeling this way.
"Every now and then I get a little bit nervous that the best of all the years have gone by."
i'm just sick of feeling this way. I don't want to be empty.
maybe its just driving with my friend chris. he goes so fast it drives me insane.
the show was really fun last night. it was so insane. people were being thrown across the room and punched in the face and omg it was just so funny. If I was a guy I definitely would've gone into that crazy mosh pit but I'm way too wussy to do that lol I'd get trampled.
and that feeling that I wrote about yesterday.. it got worse. I need to talk to a professional or something cause I feel like I'm going insane. I feel so empty, like there's nothing for me to look forward to. Things are going NOWHERE with the boy I like and I don't know why. I don't know if I want them to. I have no idea what I want. is is possible to have a crisis of faith at the age of 16? I didn't think it was. I feel really numb too. Like 2 weeks ago I felt amazing about this guy, I couldn't wait to see him and he just gave me the "feeling" thats just amazing. and now it just faded away. after a WEEK? is that possible? damn it's so annoying. I need something to make me feel alive, I'm sick of feeling this way.
"Every now and then I get a little bit nervous that the best of all the years have gone by."
i'm just sick of feeling this way. I don't want to be empty.