Hmm.
I tried to update this thing about a week ago & I didn't know how to start it off, or really, what to say at all. But then I figured that everyone was too wrapped up on myspace to even read this at all, so in the end it doesn't even matter what I write. :)
I guess I've just had this urge to type up or write down everything I feel because I don't know how else to get it out. I feel so overwhelmed with everything. I'm split between my emotions constantly & this is the last place I thought I would start rambling about it.
I'm sad high school is ending because it's what I've been used to for the past four years. But I'm excited at the same time to start college & something new & exciting. I'm happy that I'm going to be at U of A with some of my best friends, but I hate that I'm leaving some behind too. Honestly, I don't know how I'm going to get through college without Hannah. She has been there with me & for me through it all. You name it, she was there.
I'm lucky that I have Jeff to get me through all of this too though. Without him I'd be a mess, really. He's that one person that I know I can go to with anything, any time of the day. I feel pretty lucky that our relationship has gone this far with so little problems. Sure, the distance can make things tough, but if not seeing him more than a couple times a week is our biggest problem, then I have no reason to complain.
Sometimes I feel sad for my family. Leaving them in the fall & everything. I mean, I knew & they knew that this would happen someday, but that day is coming up pretty quick.
I feel like I keep learning more & more about myself as the week goes on. I've let go of a grudge I had been keeping for way too long, waaaay too long. & I feel like I can relate to anyone. I really don't know where I'm going with this...
So I'll stop.
I guess I'm just going through this whole, self-discovery/self-worth phase. I don't know what I want to be when I grow up, I don't know where I'm going to be in 10 years, I have no set plan for myself or ultimate goal. But at least I know myself, & if I know myself now, then I'll know what I want when it's presented to me. I guess that's all I can ask for.
I'll just have to be okay with that for now.
I guess I've just had this urge to type up or write down everything I feel because I don't know how else to get it out. I feel so overwhelmed with everything. I'm split between my emotions constantly & this is the last place I thought I would start rambling about it.
I'm sad high school is ending because it's what I've been used to for the past four years. But I'm excited at the same time to start college & something new & exciting. I'm happy that I'm going to be at U of A with some of my best friends, but I hate that I'm leaving some behind too. Honestly, I don't know how I'm going to get through college without Hannah. She has been there with me & for me through it all. You name it, she was there.
I'm lucky that I have Jeff to get me through all of this too though. Without him I'd be a mess, really. He's that one person that I know I can go to with anything, any time of the day. I feel pretty lucky that our relationship has gone this far with so little problems. Sure, the distance can make things tough, but if not seeing him more than a couple times a week is our biggest problem, then I have no reason to complain.
Sometimes I feel sad for my family. Leaving them in the fall & everything. I mean, I knew & they knew that this would happen someday, but that day is coming up pretty quick.
I feel like I keep learning more & more about myself as the week goes on. I've let go of a grudge I had been keeping for way too long, waaaay too long. & I feel like I can relate to anyone. I really don't know where I'm going with this...
So I'll stop.
I guess I'm just going through this whole, self-discovery/self-worth phase. I don't know what I want to be when I grow up, I don't know where I'm going to be in 10 years, I have no set plan for myself or ultimate goal. But at least I know myself, & if I know myself now, then I'll know what I want when it's presented to me. I guess that's all I can ask for.
I'll just have to be okay with that for now.