got my dreams; got my life (got my love)
WASSUP INTERNET; long time no love.
i guess i just learned to slowly toughen up and stop feeling the need to constantly prove myself on livejournal.
and i grew up.
i stopped needing to validate myself through a website and fight for the worlds approval. i no longer needed to broadcast my highs and lows through this thing. i don't need your pity anymore and i found my own congratulations.
no more flaunting everything; my world is mine.
in the past few months, there's been a lot of personal battles. and i came out winning them all. not through self-pity, but just looking at the situation realistically. by being strong, patient and having faith that it will all eventually resolve itself. there is no point crying over your present, when you don't know what your future brings.
these days; there's a lot to be thankful for.
thank you k-rudd for paying off my credit card.
no more debt & hello savings.
save/marry/honeymoon/house/babies.
we both want it and eventually we'll be ready.
come june, i'll have been with simon for two years.
i have been so blessed to be supported by this wonderfully, amazing man. someone who has stuck by me with everything. no matter what i throw at him, he constantly proves his commitment to our relationship and to me. he is my best friend/soulmate and we're so ridiculously in love with eachother. despite our clear differences, it just works. god knows it can be hard at times, but i wouldn't give it up for anything in this world.
everyone was made redundant at the wheel when it closed, but little did i realise there was another plan for me. i'm happy to say that i'm now working full-time at luna. i'm doing administration/sales and for all the dreams i've held there, this one is the most realistic for who i am.
there's no point spending my life crying over the fact that i never made it as a rides tl. it just wasn't in my stars and that's it. i would have loved to lead and influence a team, but that's okay. what i'm doing now, i am absolutely made for. my (almost) three years of carnie-ness and previous job experience make this an excellent role for me. i love my responsibilities (sans coffee-whore & dishes) and i know i make a difference.
and for the other goals i have for my life, this is where i need to be. i need a job that makes me happy and i need structure. if i do it right, i'll be able to properly manage the other areas in my life which i'm failing. i need time for my relationships and for my health.
then i'll have the balance i've constantly craved.
so yeah; things are good :)
not really sure what else to write here; ANY QUESTIONS?
we're on a red-eye back to melbourne tomorrow, so i'd better catch some z's.
next sydney trip is planned for may 8 and then we'll try to stick it out until august.
ciaociao; i'm back on lj-comments lovelies.
xoxoxo
i guess i just learned to slowly toughen up and stop feeling the need to constantly prove myself on livejournal.
and i grew up.
i stopped needing to validate myself through a website and fight for the worlds approval. i no longer needed to broadcast my highs and lows through this thing. i don't need your pity anymore and i found my own congratulations.
no more flaunting everything; my world is mine.
in the past few months, there's been a lot of personal battles. and i came out winning them all. not through self-pity, but just looking at the situation realistically. by being strong, patient and having faith that it will all eventually resolve itself. there is no point crying over your present, when you don't know what your future brings.
these days; there's a lot to be thankful for.
thank you k-rudd for paying off my credit card.
no more debt & hello savings.
save/marry/honeymoon/house/babies.
we both want it and eventually we'll be ready.
come june, i'll have been with simon for two years.
i have been so blessed to be supported by this wonderfully, amazing man. someone who has stuck by me with everything. no matter what i throw at him, he constantly proves his commitment to our relationship and to me. he is my best friend/soulmate and we're so ridiculously in love with eachother. despite our clear differences, it just works. god knows it can be hard at times, but i wouldn't give it up for anything in this world.
everyone was made redundant at the wheel when it closed, but little did i realise there was another plan for me. i'm happy to say that i'm now working full-time at luna. i'm doing administration/sales and for all the dreams i've held there, this one is the most realistic for who i am.
there's no point spending my life crying over the fact that i never made it as a rides tl. it just wasn't in my stars and that's it. i would have loved to lead and influence a team, but that's okay. what i'm doing now, i am absolutely made for. my (almost) three years of carnie-ness and previous job experience make this an excellent role for me. i love my responsibilities (sans coffee-whore & dishes) and i know i make a difference.
and for the other goals i have for my life, this is where i need to be. i need a job that makes me happy and i need structure. if i do it right, i'll be able to properly manage the other areas in my life which i'm failing. i need time for my relationships and for my health.
then i'll have the balance i've constantly craved.
so yeah; things are good :)
not really sure what else to write here; ANY QUESTIONS?
we're on a red-eye back to melbourne tomorrow, so i'd better catch some z's.
next sydney trip is planned for may 8 and then we'll try to stick it out until august.
ciaociao; i'm back on lj-comments lovelies.
xoxoxo