realizing things
i've just realized something. i'm really not that great of a person. i've realized this. i've always put alot of pride into the fact that no matter what happened. i'm a good person deep down inside. but now i'm laying stuff out for myself and i feel like a fake, like no one really knows me for the fake i am.
i act as though i'm always the better person, that i always have a reason if i'm a bitch and that if i make a bad impression its cus people dont know me. but maybe its not other people judging too quickly, maybe its people being able to see through me to who i truly am.
yeah. so i cheat on almost all my boyfriends but then try to justify it someway. ugh, its not even justifiable most of the time. i'm just a bitch who apparently doesnt care about peoples feelings. i never wanted to turn out this way, what the fuck happened to me? i really use to be nice. now i'm just not. and now i hate myself again. i finally started liking the person i was on the outside and i was recovering and shit since the whole ruben relationship. and now i hate the person i am in the inside. i'm not even a good friend or a good daughter or a good sister. its like im trying so hard to be a good person but im just not one.
why am i such a fuckin asshole?
me
me i look fat
me and andrew i look fat again
me again with the fatness..
andrew walking away lookin dramatic
laur and andrew
i act as though i'm always the better person, that i always have a reason if i'm a bitch and that if i make a bad impression its cus people dont know me. but maybe its not other people judging too quickly, maybe its people being able to see through me to who i truly am.
yeah. so i cheat on almost all my boyfriends but then try to justify it someway. ugh, its not even justifiable most of the time. i'm just a bitch who apparently doesnt care about peoples feelings. i never wanted to turn out this way, what the fuck happened to me? i really use to be nice. now i'm just not. and now i hate myself again. i finally started liking the person i was on the outside and i was recovering and shit since the whole ruben relationship. and now i hate the person i am in the inside. i'm not even a good friend or a good daughter or a good sister. its like im trying so hard to be a good person but im just not one.
why am i such a fuckin asshole?
me
me i look fat
me and andrew i look fat again
me again with the fatness..
andrew walking away lookin dramatic
laur and andrew