recovering from a potentially fatal bike ride with boudreau.
why do i avoid people so much?
as soon as i sign onto msn i put myself on away so people won't start talking to me and i don't have to start talking to them. people i really enjoy alot too, i just never feel like talking very much, actually even when i do, i avoid people so i won't start talking about myself because talking about myself feels weird because most people seem uninterested. they probably aren't though, because i'm never uninterested by them, it's just my thinking..i guess.
frig. my legs pain me. BUT today was so beautiful. there are flowers coming up outside the school which excited me, and we could walk outside at lunch and this afternoon i laid on my deck because there were no chairs out and i read and listened to my neighbor sing, because she was doing yardwork and singing. i also played with shadow and he and i talked with the dog that lives nextdoor that we can talk to though the fence. and there is a half broken window under my deck that i stepped allover and broke even more which probably wasn't a good idea but it felt nice, the glass crushing under my feet.
also, i rented magnolia tonight but my dad was eating in the kitchen and my mom was talking on the phone and my brothers tv was too loud so i ran away because i can't be around so many noises at one time or i'll go crazy, so i couldn't watch it on the dvd player. the guy at blockbuster told me they are hiring so i'm putting in an application tomorrow. i am for sure, i've been saying i wanted to for a long time but i am. i'm so poor. i'm writing up one impressive resume.
i need to go get survivor by chuck palahniuk at the library, they called me and it finally came in. too bad i can't afford books, too bad i can't afford anything. i found someone else here that reads him. this sean snell guy that colin made me add to talk about music with and his display picture was the cover of invisible monsters, so i was like hey! chuck is my favorite and he was like me too man, i'm glad to find someone can talk about it with!
i'm taking a really boring whats up, whats up this week, whats up this weekend, oh yea, cool, kinda person and making him awesome by sending him sweet music as we speak.