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last night was not very fun at all....
if you know nick boyd you know hes not a very affectionit person.. maybe to his dog or to his nephew but to nobody else... and this has been making me upset because unlike a "normal" boyfriend, which would typically tell me that im pretty, or they adore my GREEN eyes, or i have a super awesome personality... nick on the other hand... does not. well i take that back.. once he told me i had a great ass and i was hott... but he was totally drunk. and it was a month ago.
A couple of nights ago when i spent the night there, i asked him if he was happy... he just said... "why do you have to ask questions like that.." then he fell asleep.
Well anyway last night I went to his house after we were at his parents house and he picks up a motorcycle book and just leaves me to sit on the couch and entertain my self.. he doesnt say one thing to me at all.. psh how great does that make me feel. so finally i break the ice and i asked him a simple question.. i said.. "nick! whats your favorite nonphysical thing about me?"
you know what he says....
oh just guess...
"Cant you see im learning how to pass the motorcycle test.."
that set me off, i was pissed. I should of wenr home but i didnt.. i went and got a glass of water and went in the bath room and sat there for almost an hour, crying... he didnt even bother to get up and see if i was alright. then i went from the bath room to the bedroom to goto sleep and at about midnight he comes and lays down.. still not saying anything to me.. so i say to him...
"nick i just want to let you know that you really upset me tonight"
him : "why" then the cheap bastard falls aleep ( or pretend to so he didnt have to talk) while im trying to tell him.. then i said.. "oviously im not that important to you.." then in the middle of the night he wraps his arms around me and asked me what wrong.. i just looked at him and shook my head. this morning instead of shaking me like he always does to wake me up he gently touched my arm and said.. "let my dog out when you leave and lock the door"
i think he might of heard me when i said that last night but im not sure.. but im going to go and try to get this off my mind so i can stop crying..
if you know nick boyd you know hes not a very affectionit person.. maybe to his dog or to his nephew but to nobody else... and this has been making me upset because unlike a "normal" boyfriend, which would typically tell me that im pretty, or they adore my GREEN eyes, or i have a super awesome personality... nick on the other hand... does not. well i take that back.. once he told me i had a great ass and i was hott... but he was totally drunk. and it was a month ago.
A couple of nights ago when i spent the night there, i asked him if he was happy... he just said... "why do you have to ask questions like that.." then he fell asleep.
Well anyway last night I went to his house after we were at his parents house and he picks up a motorcycle book and just leaves me to sit on the couch and entertain my self.. he doesnt say one thing to me at all.. psh how great does that make me feel. so finally i break the ice and i asked him a simple question.. i said.. "nick! whats your favorite nonphysical thing about me?"
you know what he says....
oh just guess...
"Cant you see im learning how to pass the motorcycle test.."
that set me off, i was pissed. I should of wenr home but i didnt.. i went and got a glass of water and went in the bath room and sat there for almost an hour, crying... he didnt even bother to get up and see if i was alright. then i went from the bath room to the bedroom to goto sleep and at about midnight he comes and lays down.. still not saying anything to me.. so i say to him...
"nick i just want to let you know that you really upset me tonight"
him : "why" then the cheap bastard falls aleep ( or pretend to so he didnt have to talk) while im trying to tell him.. then i said.. "oviously im not that important to you.." then in the middle of the night he wraps his arms around me and asked me what wrong.. i just looked at him and shook my head. this morning instead of shaking me like he always does to wake me up he gently touched my arm and said.. "let my dog out when you leave and lock the door"
i think he might of heard me when i said that last night but im not sure.. but im going to go and try to get this off my mind so i can stop crying..