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not much has changed except I've continued to bury myself alive in stupid shit, but for once I haven't let it get to me. I realize there are people I don't like constantly in my presence but my mindset has been switched to a default, a "oh well, fuck em" attitude has affirmed it's position in the forefront of my mind. It's nice to not have to care about other's actions or mistakes. The only thing that slightly irks me is that there are more than enough people who think they know me. I guarantee you 100% that there is not a single person in this town that knows me in the slightest. I just imagine a scenario in which somebody is telling a story about me and then someone says "oh that's caleb!" and it makes me laugh because any predictability that has come to be associated with my personality is absolutely ridiculous. I , and only I, know the complexity of my mannerisms and my thought process. And for people who think that I'm trying to be black you can seriously go stand on the runway at an airport and wait for a plane to annihilate you. In case you don't know by now the majority of black people I have met make me utterly sick and I wish that they were in Africa experiencing genocide at its finest. I don't try to offend but I know that inevitably it happens and once again I don't care. None of this is a result of me being a self-centered 16 yr old, it's a result of me being surrounded by some stupid people too often.