i think more people should think this way.
"I don't want to sound presumptuous. I only know for certain what my intentions were when I started to write &play. At that point in my life I felt crushed by a desire not just to pass time anymore or waste myself on merely surviving. I couldn't stand seeing so many of us wasting ourselves that way, reduced to living hand to mouth, all of our pride gone. We're noble creatures capable of curing diseases, creating art, appreciating beauty &most of us don't even get the chance to see that. &I thought, God, if it's this hard for me, a young white girl, imagine how hard it must be for people who have to face racism, for example, or a handicap, or prejudice because of their sexual preference. Wasn't I- aren't we all- worth more than worrying about how the rent is going to be paid or if we are going to bed fed? I started to feel life wasn't worth it if there wasn't anything beyond that. I'd reach the point where I couldn't accept such limitation &pain all the time.
I realize we're not taught to think about ourselves or on our own. We go to therapists, psychics to be understood, God to be forgiven, lovers to be liked. But when those responses don't come from within, we handicap ourselves &become dependent on others to keep us in line. As a result, we're not intimate with ourselves, we're not intimate with our thought process, with our emotion or spirit. Very often we don't even know the difference between fear &anger.
What is pollution? Thoughtlessness. War? Thoughtlessness. Instead of treating things like pollution, war, untrustworthy politicians, &the fact that thirteen year olds are killing themselves as seperate issues we need to think of all these things as manifestations of thoughtlessness, a lack of intimacy with the spirit &the divine.
Often we let ourselves off the hook for what we do by saying, "Ah, I'm only human." Only human? We're spirit as well as a physical body that allows us to manifest thought. That's a gift, not a weakness. I spent most of my life up to this point feeling life wasn't a gift, that it was a burden, that to be spiritual, you had to transcend your body, live on a mountain, &eat only brown rice with nothing on it. I believed all those ideas people have about spirituality- you can't be rich, you can't wear make up, you can't have sex- but it's really not that way. We are divine in our own form. We are capable of anything. There is no limit. People like Einstein shouldn't be uncommon. All our minds have that potential. It's a matter of cultivating it, of taking responsibility for it.
Each of us affect hundreds of people we never see &who never tell us about the effect we've had on them. Small acts of kindness do really add up, &on the other side, one suicide is made up of a thousand little cruelties. We can change each other's lives by really focusing on our human interactions day to day. "
Jewel