|[ ...Day Dreamin ]|
*Day dreaming&i'm thinking of you...* damn this cd is madd old. I don't even remember making this shit. I think I made it around nov-dec `02 or something like that. It got 50 Cent - 21 Questions, Cam'ron - Day Dreaming, Jayz ft. Beyonce - '03 Bonnie&Clyde, Ashanti - Baby, Mario - Braid my hair, Nivea - 25 Reasons, Wayne Wonder - No letting go, Sean Paul - Get busy, Busta Rhymes ft. Mariah Carey - I know what you want&some other shit. I really needa stop listening to this shit cause it's making me think too much. (As if I don't think about that shit enough already). But I guess you have no choice when shit is constantly thrown in your face about shit that was partially your fault; but at the same time it wasn't. Or maybe thats just my opinion on it. But I know how shit went down cause obviously I was there&it wasn't the way everyone likes to believe it was. Yes; it shouldv'e never happened&thats something I never wanted to happened.. shit; I literally got physically sick after that happened. &No; I wasn't with him either.. I was near BK waiting for Kae&he kept following me. Wtf was I supposed to do to that fat ass at 5'2&skinny as fuck!? Seriously though; I mean yes in a way it is partially my fault because it couldv'e been prevented. But it wasn't&I can't do shit to change it. I can only explain what happened; apoligize for it&hope that you forgive me. &If you don't then I can't make you; but I hope that you do. But I don't get how you can constantly throw that shit to me when you could never even imagine how much you hurt me. &Yet I forgive you like it's nothing.. if the situation was flipped; jeaa I woulda been madd but I wouldv'e still been there. But maybe thats just me cause I still haven't gone anywhere. The other niggas I was with.. it was all of 6 niggas&out of all of them I still talked to one up until recently. (Friday night to be exact.) Did I love them? .. I don't even know. I mean jeaa I said it; but did I honestly mean it... I really don't know. It doesn't even matter to me cause i'm never gonna talk to them again anyway. &Even if I was I still wouldn't care. You always seem to question me about everything yet I don't hear you saying shit about you&what you do or did. Then you say stuff but don't follow thru.. idk; theres just alot you don't know/understand.. alot I haven't said. I don't even know what i'm posting this for. I just wanted to clear my head... if you read it; you read it. If you don't; you don't. I just want you to be real with me.. I'm off this. A private entry will be coming next to explain what i'm talking about; cause I know yall are like wtf is she talking about. This is still a private site; i've just been making a few public entries. Comment to be added. I know I haven't been commenting alot either but i'ma gonna get to that today&if not tomorrow. `1<33