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so a lot's been going on since i last posted.
it's been months
*the break up
*spring break
*prom
*my job
*adaeze
*ilea
*andrew
*grad/proj grad
*church friends
*enrique's grad party
*senior recital.
*the break up: we broke up. we bothh knew there wasn't anything good between us. i wasn't too sad about the actual thing. i was just sad that the girl that was supposed to be my best friend didn't even seem to care Adaeze did not even seem to care. she started going to lunch with him and hanging out with him more. and i don't even know. more about that later.
*spring break: we had just broken up, so i went to el paso. kindd of lame. i lovve my family, and seeing them was great, but my cousins were still in school. soo senior spring break was not too exciting. there were probably some really exciting things that i did, but right now i really can't remember.
*prom was absolutely amazing. i asked andrew. and he said yes. and we had a great time. me and him, ilea and blake rusk. for dinner we went to some steak road house thing. but we danced pretty much all night. he looked absolutely amazinggg. afterwards we went to ihop. and we were both really tired. so we went home.
the next weekend, he invited me to see spring show. soo we went to dinner, and when we got to spring show, asty and kevin were there. i was so confused. then afterwards, we were gonna go see a movie, and then kevin called, and andrew invited kevin! i was like whaaaat? so it made it kind of weird, becuase i was really thinking about making some kind of move. but with kevin there, idk. it was just weird.
since then, nothing's happened with him. and i guess that's the way he wants it.
*my job: it's ok. i love the kids. the girls i work with are a different story. they're really nice (most of them), but they are ALL like best friends! and all have known each other foreverrr, and they have all these inside jokes and stuff, and i'm the only new one. soo that's kind of dumb. hopefully tomorrow [my first day working camps] things will work out good.
*ilea: idk what's up with her. she seems mad that i've been hanging out with anna, but she's always with her boyfriend! and after proj grad, i spent the night at her house, and she fell asleep right away. soo i left her house and went to breakfast with my cousin. (i left a note!) we haven't really talked since then. i think she's mad. but i really don't know why.
*adaeze and enrique. where to even start.
i don't even want to talk about it actually. i still wish i never introduced them.
*andrew: see prom.
i don't know what to think about this boy. maybe we'll hang out this summer. maybe not. we'll just have to wait and see how it plays out.
*grad/proj grad: grad wasn't too exciting. kind of boring. but proj grad was pretty great. instead of sticking to one lil group, i saw everybodyy. adaeze enrique natalie paul ilea etc... anddd i met a boyy. kind of. jacob. we hung out a lil, and then we've been texing since then. anddd i saw him at heb. and he's a cool guy.
*enrique's grad party: it was ok. it kind of reminded me of the parties my gramma and grandpa have. except enriques was a lot smaller. it was fine until the end.
idk i just kind of blew up. i dont even know what it was. but then we left, and adaeze and i talked a lot. and i was pretty much crying. it surprised me to see that she was tearing up a little too. idk what's gonna happen with all of us. like i've said before, i wish i never introduced them. and then enrique called me, and it was a whole lot of silence. whatever. we're gonna hang out on tuesday and see how it goes. i told him some really bad things. like i told him i blamed him for losing my best friend. i still can't believe i said that. i guess i was just mad.
*senior recital: what a train wreck. i ended with a smile though. i just can't believe i performed my entire progam PERFECTLY like an hour before the performance, and as soon as i got on stage it went out of my head. i lovvve to perform, and that kind of thing never happens to me! i think i just had a lot on my mind, because enrique's party was the night before, and i didn't get to sleep until 4 in the morning and woke up at 8. and then right before, my dad got pissed at me for something. so i guess i wasn't really focused on playing.
i hate how i let things like that get to me. that's probably why i'm going into mus ed and NOT piano performance.
i was so amazed at how many people came to see me. adaeze anna ilea+fam melanie+mom brian paul enrique and my parents. my family and friends seriously took up about 75% of the audience. woww. i love everybody.
that's about it.
i can't wait to move out.
hopefully SMU was a good choice.
it's been months
*the break up
*spring break
*prom
*my job
*adaeze
*ilea
*andrew
*grad/proj grad
*church friends
*enrique's grad party
*senior recital.
*the break up: we broke up. we bothh knew there wasn't anything good between us. i wasn't too sad about the actual thing. i was just sad that the girl that was supposed to be my best friend didn't even seem to care Adaeze did not even seem to care. she started going to lunch with him and hanging out with him more. and i don't even know. more about that later.
*spring break: we had just broken up, so i went to el paso. kindd of lame. i lovve my family, and seeing them was great, but my cousins were still in school. soo senior spring break was not too exciting. there were probably some really exciting things that i did, but right now i really can't remember.
*prom was absolutely amazing. i asked andrew. and he said yes. and we had a great time. me and him, ilea and blake rusk. for dinner we went to some steak road house thing. but we danced pretty much all night. he looked absolutely amazinggg. afterwards we went to ihop. and we were both really tired. so we went home.
the next weekend, he invited me to see spring show. soo we went to dinner, and when we got to spring show, asty and kevin were there. i was so confused. then afterwards, we were gonna go see a movie, and then kevin called, and andrew invited kevin! i was like whaaaat? so it made it kind of weird, becuase i was really thinking about making some kind of move. but with kevin there, idk. it was just weird.
since then, nothing's happened with him. and i guess that's the way he wants it.
*my job: it's ok. i love the kids. the girls i work with are a different story. they're really nice (most of them), but they are ALL like best friends! and all have known each other foreverrr, and they have all these inside jokes and stuff, and i'm the only new one. soo that's kind of dumb. hopefully tomorrow [my first day working camps] things will work out good.
*ilea: idk what's up with her. she seems mad that i've been hanging out with anna, but she's always with her boyfriend! and after proj grad, i spent the night at her house, and she fell asleep right away. soo i left her house and went to breakfast with my cousin. (i left a note!) we haven't really talked since then. i think she's mad. but i really don't know why.
*adaeze and enrique. where to even start.
i don't even want to talk about it actually. i still wish i never introduced them.
*andrew: see prom.
i don't know what to think about this boy. maybe we'll hang out this summer. maybe not. we'll just have to wait and see how it plays out.
*grad/proj grad: grad wasn't too exciting. kind of boring. but proj grad was pretty great. instead of sticking to one lil group, i saw everybodyy. adaeze enrique natalie paul ilea etc... anddd i met a boyy. kind of. jacob. we hung out a lil, and then we've been texing since then. anddd i saw him at heb. and he's a cool guy.
*enrique's grad party: it was ok. it kind of reminded me of the parties my gramma and grandpa have. except enriques was a lot smaller. it was fine until the end.
idk i just kind of blew up. i dont even know what it was. but then we left, and adaeze and i talked a lot. and i was pretty much crying. it surprised me to see that she was tearing up a little too. idk what's gonna happen with all of us. like i've said before, i wish i never introduced them. and then enrique called me, and it was a whole lot of silence. whatever. we're gonna hang out on tuesday and see how it goes. i told him some really bad things. like i told him i blamed him for losing my best friend. i still can't believe i said that. i guess i was just mad.
*senior recital: what a train wreck. i ended with a smile though. i just can't believe i performed my entire progam PERFECTLY like an hour before the performance, and as soon as i got on stage it went out of my head. i lovvve to perform, and that kind of thing never happens to me! i think i just had a lot on my mind, because enrique's party was the night before, and i didn't get to sleep until 4 in the morning and woke up at 8. and then right before, my dad got pissed at me for something. so i guess i wasn't really focused on playing.
i hate how i let things like that get to me. that's probably why i'm going into mus ed and NOT piano performance.
i was so amazed at how many people came to see me. adaeze anna ilea+fam melanie+mom brian paul enrique and my parents. my family and friends seriously took up about 75% of the audience. woww. i love everybody.
that's about it.
i can't wait to move out.
hopefully SMU was a good choice.