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So i liked this boy.
I liked him a lot.
We have been talking for about a year now.
We lived 9 hours away and still have never met.
We've been through so much and i loved him.
We talked everynight and he knew me more than anybody.
The whole distance thing really got to me and made me feel like we'd never be.
So i started to pretend and come off like i didn't care anymore and pushed him far away and did things that i would never do to a human being and treated him like shit.
We didn't talk for a long time after that.
I tried talking to other guys but none of them compared to him.
A few months later we started talking again... as "friends."
I was good with this... everytime we talked i wanted to be with him and never told him how much i cared.
He got a boyfriend.
This bummmed me out like whoa.
And hurt me just like i hurt him before but i never told him.
They broke up and this made me complelety feel up with joy.
We started talking again but again as just "friends"
I told him how i really felt a couple of days ago...
He doesn't feel the same anymore.
He's moved on.
Now we'll never be.
I guess i got what i deserved.
I lost the one i truely loved.
<3
Daniel Hilton
a funny thing is when we were talking in the begining we discussed how much we loved Kelly Clarkson and how both of our favorite song was "I Hate Myself For Losing You." So that was "our song," even though it was a song about breaking up haha...
now this is my song to him...
I woke up today
Woke up wide awake
In an empty bed
Staring at an empty room
I have myself to blame
For the state I'm in today
And now, dyin' doesn't seem so cruel
And oh, I don't know what to say
And I don't know anyway, anymore
I hate myself for losing you
I'm seeing it all so clear
I hate myself for losing you
What do you do when you look in the mirror
And staring at you is why he's not here
You got what you deserved
Hope your happy now
Cause every time I think of her with you
It's killing me inside
And now I dread each day
Knowing that I can't be saved
From the loneliness of living without you
And oh, I don't know what to do
Not sure that I'll pull through
I wish you knew
I hate myself for losing you
And oh, I don't know what to do
Not sure that I'll pull through
I wish you knew
I wish you knew
And oh, I don't know what to say
And I don't know anyway, anymore
What do you say when everything you said
Is the reason why he left you in the end
How do you cry when every tear you shed
Won't ever bring him back again
I hate myself for loving you
I liked him a lot.
We have been talking for about a year now.
We lived 9 hours away and still have never met.
We've been through so much and i loved him.
We talked everynight and he knew me more than anybody.
The whole distance thing really got to me and made me feel like we'd never be.
So i started to pretend and come off like i didn't care anymore and pushed him far away and did things that i would never do to a human being and treated him like shit.
We didn't talk for a long time after that.
I tried talking to other guys but none of them compared to him.
A few months later we started talking again... as "friends."
I was good with this... everytime we talked i wanted to be with him and never told him how much i cared.
He got a boyfriend.
This bummmed me out like whoa.
And hurt me just like i hurt him before but i never told him.
They broke up and this made me complelety feel up with joy.
We started talking again but again as just "friends"
I told him how i really felt a couple of days ago...
He doesn't feel the same anymore.
He's moved on.
Now we'll never be.
I guess i got what i deserved.
I lost the one i truely loved.
<3
Daniel Hilton
a funny thing is when we were talking in the begining we discussed how much we loved Kelly Clarkson and how both of our favorite song was "I Hate Myself For Losing You." So that was "our song," even though it was a song about breaking up haha...
now this is my song to him...
I woke up today
Woke up wide awake
In an empty bed
Staring at an empty room
I have myself to blame
For the state I'm in today
And now, dyin' doesn't seem so cruel
And oh, I don't know what to say
And I don't know anyway, anymore
I hate myself for losing you
I'm seeing it all so clear
I hate myself for losing you
What do you do when you look in the mirror
And staring at you is why he's not here
You got what you deserved
Hope your happy now
Cause every time I think of her with you
It's killing me inside
And now I dread each day
Knowing that I can't be saved
From the loneliness of living without you
And oh, I don't know what to do
Not sure that I'll pull through
I wish you knew
I hate myself for losing you
And oh, I don't know what to do
Not sure that I'll pull through
I wish you knew
I wish you knew
And oh, I don't know what to say
And I don't know anyway, anymore
What do you say when everything you said
Is the reason why he left you in the end
How do you cry when every tear you shed
Won't ever bring him back again
I hate myself for loving you