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i got exactly what i needed from chuck. it was definitely not what i wanted to hear, but he's right and i know it. i don't have a snowball's chance in hell. he even managed to throw in a rancid reference so i'd get it, but the difference between me and brody dalle (besides the fact that she sounds like a man and is crustier than...crust) is that i did not make out with josh holme in rolling stone photos and neglect to tell my husband. it's the thought that counts though, and chuck's point was not that brody and i are at all alike, but that she and tim armstrong are never going to get back together. i appreciate what he had to say, and even though it sucked to hear it, i know he's right. i needed to hear it from someone, the truth about mr. augustineibreakgirlsheartsforaliving bresee. most people have said it sounds like he'll change his mind, "he'll come running back sooner or later." and with any other guy that would probably be the case.
chuck said he's seen girls lament over gus to the point where it affected their quality of life and he didn't want to see that happen to me. on one hand i love chuck for caring enough to tell me that, but it feels really shitty to know that i'm not the first, and probably won't be the last. it feels like i'm just another proverbial notch on the bedpost. it sucks to know that people exist in this world who have the ability to hurt you so much with so little regard for your well-being. it sucks to know that these people don't stop at one, they hurt many.