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today was a bad day. probably the worst one i've had in awhile
it started out in english when we went to the CCC
i had to finish my physics lab but i didnt understand what jennifer was telling me to do
and so i had breakdown cuz i didnt want to get a zero
then the lady keep talking about how if you get two Cs senior year UCs will not accept you
so then i started to breakdown even harder cuz i was freaking out cuz i am doing really bad in school right now and i am not sure why..its not like i am not trying at all...i am ..i am just stupid
and college is really stressing me out. i feel like i can not get into anywhere. i hear all my friends talk about all these good schools and they have so much opportunity and i feel like i am limited to all these places that i dont really want to go. i dont want to sit here and think well i could of, should of kind of thing cuz my grades are in the past and i cant change them so why think about that but i just wish i could go to somewhere where i want to be there and not just to anywhere that will take me
if i could get into LMU or UCSB i think id be ok but i dont know how good of a chance that is
so then i get to physics and he gives us time to work on the lab
but no one knows wat they are doing
so we get the weekend
but he expects them to be perfect
then i go to stats
i thought i did well on my test
but i didnt
again
and when i say bad i mean bad
i have a D+ in that class (yeah i know i am an idiot)
its suppose to be easy and it is
i just dont know whats wrong
i made a bunch of stupid mistakes cuz i freak out everytime i take a test
go to photo
you think that would go well
we have a quiz
all the answers were true
trick questions
i didnt put all true
i got a 4+/5 on my notebook cuz my intro wasn't typed
he is so annoying
everything u do wrong even if its the smallest thing
he takes off points
mr. gillman is so freaken weird
he kicks u out of class if u are chewing gum or say something he doesn't like
i cant even explain his weirdness
u think photo would be the easy A
its not going to be
go to yearbook
stress
mrs. nelson made us take out biggest stresser and worst drive cuz she like freaks out over senior best
she won't let us use class clown because this one time this guy ran for governor and his opponent found his old hs yearbook and he was voted class clown..his opponent then copied the page and made flyers....the guy who ran for govener sued the high school
ok so what are the chances that is going to happen
oh and we had to change most likely to never grow up to most likely to never grow old because like at the 20th reunion that person might have been divorced three times and that title will just SMACK THEM IN THE FACE!
she seriously said that...she is crazy...i have decided
then lunch i had to work in the yearbook room even though i wanted to go to pink ribbon club but lisa wouldnt let me..i need to start going to clubs ASAP!
then came back to work on yearbook ladder...pain
lisa fixed my physics lab so i am really happy and thankful =)
we have this mouse in the yearbook room that comes out everyday at lunch/after school . its really cute but it freaks me out and i always scream but i am getting used to it lol
then me, steph, lisa, and adam had this whole conversation on life and god i still don't know what i believe
when i think about it ..i think the religion you choose isnt a choice.....if your parents are jewish you are most likely to be jewish...yeah some people "change" but its not common ..if u grow up with a certain belief and its drilled in your brain since u were 2 ..your going to be that way so why is it fair to say that only jews, christians, catholics get into heaven ...i really wish i could take a religious studies class and also how can there be so many religions and only one right ...how can u say one is right when u have no proof
i really wish someone could answer that question but i dont think there is an answer
i skipped work today AGAIN! EKKK
college apps still have not started
i have been so tired lately it makes me feel sick (mono?)
i am so happy its the weekend!
even though i have a crap load of hw/stuff to do
baby sit tomorrow/sunday night! monney!! but means i cant hang out with friends =( i feel like i dont hang out with anyone anymore
senior pics thursday. =(