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well i havent updated this in a while
and instead of venting to a person ill go for lj
but fuckk
life seems too repetitive and im beginning to feel like i felt 7 or 8 months ago, which is the last place on earth id rather be.
im getting so sick of my everyday life and i have no idea how to change it
i feel like im losing my mind again
it seems like when im lonely or sad or feeling like shit towards life im the only one i have to help me out.
and i cant fucking do it again.
like yea ive got close friedns but it feels like they couldnt care less
im not saying im their responsibility to make feel better..
but itd be nice if theyd understand in a way.
for some reason past events have been coming to mind a lot
and its the last thing id like to think about
i just miss the old days and people who were around who arent anymore
i dont like this shitty feeling and being lamee all the time lately
whattt the heeeellll is wrong. i dont even know fuck this.
and instead of venting to a person ill go for lj
but fuckk
life seems too repetitive and im beginning to feel like i felt 7 or 8 months ago, which is the last place on earth id rather be.
im getting so sick of my everyday life and i have no idea how to change it
i feel like im losing my mind again
it seems like when im lonely or sad or feeling like shit towards life im the only one i have to help me out.
and i cant fucking do it again.
like yea ive got close friedns but it feels like they couldnt care less
im not saying im their responsibility to make feel better..
but itd be nice if theyd understand in a way.
for some reason past events have been coming to mind a lot
and its the last thing id like to think about
i just miss the old days and people who were around who arent anymore
i dont like this shitty feeling and being lamee all the time lately
whattt the heeeellll is wrong. i dont even know fuck this.