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Reflecting on my life, I have to say its going quite well. I look at the world around me, the people around me and I just don;t know anymore. People ive known for years now are like I dont even know them anymore, today i found out something about your friends and you wonder whether they are really that capable of a lack of moals and ethics. But you know thats life. We were all warned that the firends we grew up with would chane, and thats how it goes. and sometimes you need to put things in perspective, lately ive felt more apathetic, and a good friend of mine (not used loosely here) told me today as well that he is feeling the same way. It's come to the point where I care for a select few, and not to anyone else. I'll be the first guy to bend over to pick up a pen when it falls or go to cheer some one up when theyre down, but there have been so many friends that it seems I have grown so distant from, and it seems as if it's not my concern anymore. Back to what opened this entry, I realized that to find someone special is incredibly difficult. Most of the women today are just so "open" in every sense of the word. To find someone worth it all, someone who no matter what your mood can lift you up and make you feel better, to find some one who you are not afraid of possibly spending the rest of your life with saying that that time is not going to be enough, some one who makes you so truly happy. Not just a grin, not just a smile but to feel over whelmed every time she says "I love you". That is love. But what is even harder to do is to find that one person that you make feel the same way. When that person is found, when that bond is formed, it's who they call your soulmate. People spend their lives trying to find this one person. I truly beleive with all my heart (or whatever part of my brain says that my heart...). with all my being that I have found that one woman that is destined for me. But then again, many can argue that they will be together forever. But what makes our relationship any different, for a while I didn't know the answer. In my head was running, well I care for her, I am hurt when she is, I want to spend every second with her, all of that. But like i mentioned before, she feels the same way about me, and that makes all the difference. (Although in any way shape or form she wont admit it) I have the perfect girl for me and I truly beleive that nothing can change that.