Love stinks
yeah, I cant stop listening to that song, it's so great, I think the only reason I'm bitter about love is because I'm not in love, myself, crap, CRAP CRAP CRAP!!!
It's so weird, all my friends have had a B/F that they're like "I love him so much" even if it didnt last, they thought they were in love at the time, I've never felt that way, EVAR!
I wish I was a little more brave when it came to boys, I'm such a chicken, there have been plenty of chances for me to talk to Jordan, not that they would end up how I would want it, but at least I could say I was brave enough to try, but no...
I just know I'm going to miss out on something good if I dont stop being such a chicken shit, it may even cause some drama :|, I had this terrible dream last night, I'm not going to tell you about it, but it was aweful, and it made me scared, because I have this feeling it could very possibley happen.
I wish I knew what to do, I have a lot of bad feelings about certian things, and I'm usually right when it comes to my bad feelings, but I dont want to do anything because it would seem like I was being a bitch, it's hard to explain. I'm sure if you're reading this you're like "wtf?" but if you knew the whole situation, you would understand better, but guess what, you're not gonna find out! :P
I went to Kroger today with my mom and my hair was pulled back, well if you've ever seen me before you know that I have bad acne, and it's even worse on my forhead, well this lady behind the customer service desk was waiting for my mom to fill out a money order thing, and she was staring at my forehead, it made me really uncomfortable, normally I would be like "what are you staring at?" but I knew what she was staring at, and it made me really sad. I'm actually starting toget depressed about my acne, does that make me pathetic? I dont care if it does, it's a terrible thing, it totally cuts down on your self esteem, I hate it :(. I've tried for over 4 years to get rid of it, nothing works, I'm supposed to get ProAvtive, hopefully that work, I saw this lady on a ProActive comercial who was 34 and had been battling acne since she was 16, thats 20 years!!!!
last night I actually cried over it, I hate it when people make fun of other people with acne, it cant be helped, it can, just not in all cases, and having it alone is toruture enough without having other people point it out to you. acne is some form of torture sent from Jesus, he's punishing me for something, I'm sure of it. I dont understand it, I see so many people who have clear complctions, and I wonder how the hell they manage it? GOSH! I dont even want a perfect complection, just a better one than I have now...I just dont know who to do it, my mom keeps saying when I start using a new cream, that it was working until I stopped using it, but I used one for 2 years, and it didnt do anything, she swears my complection was clear, but no, it wasnt...
I'm, gonna go be depressed, you guys have a nice day :P
*MAD LOVE*
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