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i guess sometimes, though infrequent, you look around and realize that everything has been lost. theres this feeling, that everything is over around me, and so many relationships are the carcasses of what were once blossoms. people don't even care to evolve, they know they were a negative influence in your life, or a bad boyfriend, bad friend. but nobody seems to care to change. i'm going on this trip. i care about change. i care about the people that have forgotten about me. we all have those people. and i'm going to come back and forge those new relationships, through life and not stand bullshit and neglection like this, at least not contribute my own negativity or passiveness, because its old. i did a lot of driving last night because i hate walking in the door to my house angry. i thought about all of you, its almost like i know all your secrets now. and i can see how you don't care. why didn't i expose this before. those who make effort in contacting me [i have a cell phone. i have aim. i have a permanent street address]. will be rewarded in efforts back. otherwise, i don't care either and i'm going to find people that do. starts with who even bothered to read this.