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I'm really craving a great friend right now. Someone who will love me despite my flaws, who I can tell every single detail of my life and not feel stupid at all. But, I feel stupid around most people most of the time.
I want to feel like I can just call someone up and they'll want to talk to me. Everytime I do call someone I think they must hate me. That they're just talking to me to be polite, but really wish they were somewhere else.
Some kids are getting drunk in the park I'm at. And I'm jealous, mostly that they seem so happy and young. I feel old, like I wasted my life reading and worrying.
Blah. Emotions.
I want to feel like I can just call someone up and they'll want to talk to me. Everytime I do call someone I think they must hate me. That they're just talking to me to be polite, but really wish they were somewhere else.
Some kids are getting drunk in the park I'm at. And I'm jealous, mostly that they seem so happy and young. I feel old, like I wasted my life reading and worrying.
Blah. Emotions.