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I'm a mess and I've given up. Made to believe once again that heredity and sarotonin levels are the causes of all my problems. And even though I hate their stupid theories I'm dead without those pills. I tried so hard, but I can't live the life I want without them. Hello, defeat.
Life's so busy these days. I hardly have time to read and write..I haven't used my camera in about three weeks. My room has become one big pile of junk that I'm too busy or tired to put away. I forget to feed my fish. The time I spend talking to my cat has dropped by at least 75%. I'm just exhausted. For the most part I can handle it..but then I lie down to sleep and I start crying and I wake up wanting to sleep. I'm plagued by lack of motivation, lack of emotion and on the stop amnesia. I'm crabby and disorientated.
The worst part. Why am I like this? I have no reason. Life's treated me alright. But, my mind has decided to fuck it over by making me an angry, sad bitch.
Life's so busy these days. I hardly have time to read and write..I haven't used my camera in about three weeks. My room has become one big pile of junk that I'm too busy or tired to put away. I forget to feed my fish. The time I spend talking to my cat has dropped by at least 75%. I'm just exhausted. For the most part I can handle it..but then I lie down to sleep and I start crying and I wake up wanting to sleep. I'm plagued by lack of motivation, lack of emotion and on the stop amnesia. I'm crabby and disorientated.
The worst part. Why am I like this? I have no reason. Life's treated me alright. But, my mind has decided to fuck it over by making me an angry, sad bitch.