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i was happy for a while but then these last two weeks sucked becuase i dont know. somone i am close to has been actng weird latly and its makeing school and home stressful.i just want to get a while for a while hang out with some new faces or some really old. i read threw some old notes from 7th and 8th grade. they made me cry. i read over the ones from when my friends said good bye when i moved and i remembered how bad it hurt to read them. i miss my tucson friends liek crazy. there were some from friends i dont even talk to anymore and havent talked to since i moved i wonder if they even remeber me. i want to move back to tucson to be with them because i hate gilbert and all the poeple that go here.i want the poeple that watched me grow up.i guess i must be home sick or something.my friends here are great but they dont know the real me and i dont think they really care as long as i give them somoen to talk to. i feel liek i dont know my own friends. like in tucson i knew everything about everyone but now i dont kow shit im out of that loop and i dont think i can ever back in. i guess we have all grown up and moved on becuase now we never talk the only person i actually still talk to is caroline. i miss chantelle to becuase we havent hung out in so long it makes me sad becuase i used to go to her house. im surrounded by all these people and yet i still feel alone.