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I don't care for whoever reads this
Have your opinions.....
My dad is going to jail next Thursday
Yes I admitted it.
Dont say "ASHLEY IM SO SORRY" or "YOUR DAD IS A BAD DAD" or "I FEEL BAD FOR YOU"
Because you shouldn't feel sorry for me.
My dad is NOT a bad dad.
And no bad feelings should be needed for me.
He NEEDS to go. I want him to stop drinking.
Maybe this time it'll finally make him FUCKING quit.
I needed to say this out loud... it makes it more real.
What I want, and what I dream,
May not be so simple, as it may seem.
I know that it's hard, but please understand why,
That you need to stop, so I can cease to cry.
I cry for you, and I cry for me,
I cry for the world that may be never be.
I don't want to sit around anymore, and just simply wait,
For your horrid addiction to forever abate.
Each time you take a drink is a blow to my chest,
I have to look away, before you consume the rest.
These words not spoken once, but a thousand times,
Just seem to me now, as a bunch of lies.
"I'm quitting, this is the last one, just let me finish"
Results in my hope forever lost, for your drinking to diminish.
The slur in your words, the look in your eyes,
Please just answer me now, instead of your sighs.
Can you honestly not realize what you're doing to me?
Or to mom, our family, what you're becoming to be?
Dad I love you, now and forever,
But never will I understand, not now; not ever.