making up excuses just to touch you

[__psycho_cat__]

i like my hair
its not as red as i wanted it to be
but since i've died my hair black
it never comes out the way i want it to
because its hard to dye ontop of already faded dye...
oh well.
i feel very shitty
and cranky
like i'm mad at the world today.
i dont know if that makes any sense
i just feel like curling up in my bed and never coming out...
other wise known as
are we doing anything today?
i wanted supercool to come over but my step mom and sister planned a random trip to the mall and they're not home so he can't come over untill they get home and who knows when that will be
i'm pissed
cuz i cant go to kelly's fuckign party
cuz thats the day of my family party
and it fuckign sucks.
my family party
that i found out about when?
TODAY
ugh.
oh well.
atleast i'll have money to get clothes for school.

so i'm going through my friend's page
and reading stuff about people going away to college is getting me really upset
i dotn like it
and i dont want it to ever happen to me.
so i'm ensuring myself
that me & all my friends will never lose touch
even though i know we all will
ugh
the world is fricken retarded
i hate it
good night.

i dont know why good night.
just because