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i was just looking at my scrapbook, the one i have yet to finish..
and looking back at everything is very surreal.
i am so different now.
not in a completely-different-person sort of way,
i'm still jessie
i'm still crazy
i'm still loud
i'm still a monkey

but i never get angry that much anymore.
back in the day a leaf could fall of a tree and i'd want to kill someone.
but i can't be bothered by anything now.
i have morphed from a pessimist to an optimist.
and i'm very proud of myself, because that was just unhealthy.

so...mellow jessie's news:
- my last day at goddard will be the 17th
- i got my third tattoo
- i've actually started to shoot in color
- i will be going to california next summer, tickets are being booked around thanksgiving
- sheridan and i (the wench) no longer hate eachother, we're best buds now
- my twin will be leaving me in a few weeks
- my hair is to my shoulders
- i have an unexpected amount of money in the bank
- i will be taking out a loan in the spring and moving next summer. guess where...
- i'm falling for someone that is so obvious, it should be a joke
-my cholesterol and blood pressure have gone way down