I wish these autumn trees would turn already
2009 had been one of the worst years of all times. For me at least. Both parents lost their jobs, family depression, money gone,dad had a heart attack. I know it's been hard for you too. Sometimes I still think back and remember you. I miss you. I lost you when I was 13 and at that tender age, you remember everything like it was yesturday. Then a few short months later, I lost my friend. Hit by a car at a cross walk. You would have gone far. I know your my saving grace. I just didn't feel like falling, but now I see that everywhere im looking now im surrounded by your embrace. I thought this would die so easily, it's still there. I remember everyday why I breathe. It's because of you, 2 min away. This isn't the epilogue you wish it would be. I look in the same mirror everyday, and I still see your face staring back. I wonder if you can even read this, or if you are right now. Can I get that sign? Maybe through the phone? I still won't be able to reach you, because you won't let me. This isn't suppose to make any sence, and I hope it doesn't. For your sake. I still have those wonderful memories. I guess as life fades on, thats all anyone ever has; For those, I am thankful. I one day hope that you can feel my tears, running down my cheek, because those tears are for you.