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[__pretty_eyes]

im feelin kinda lonely
i mean i got a lot on my mind
this summer n all vs. wayne state
its a big decsion , whether u wanna believe it or not.
i got a guy who thinks hes playin me but i just wont have it
i got girls cosin drama n im just ignoring it
n maybe by me pushin it out my life im losin something
but in the moment i only feel like im gaining
im sick of stupid shit, stupid lies, stupid conversations
i want more. i want life. i want love. i want whats real.
maybe i lost alot in all of this, but truely
maybe i didnt
im seriously so lost at words, and thoughts/ideas
i dont really know what to do wit myself
or how to feel
i wanna say im numb to it all
but im far from not
where the hell do i go from here?
when uve figured so much out,
but u dont know whether to follow your head or follow your heart?
i dont eve have someone to look to for advice
no one i trust
no one i truely love
what has happened
honestly
what the fuck has happened
i dont know if im okay
i dont know if im perfect
i dont really know anything
for once in my life
i cant grasp a hold on what the hell is goin on ....
u could try n help.. but i think i gotta figure this out on my own, even if it takes me a long ass time

whateva
sweetdreams <3