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I seriously feel like I'm being one fo those crazy girlfriends because lately I have been getting so angry at the things sam chooses to do. I just feel like he isn't even thinking of me in a lot of situations.
The other night I was at the seven hanging out with shavonne and cassi and I decided to leave really early so I could pick sam up on time or better yet, just wait for him to get off work. When I arrived, after speeding to make sure I wasn't late, He comes up to the car and says "I'm just going to ride with travis, okay". I didn't say anything because I didnt want to make a scene but that really made me so mad. was I overreacting?
Anways, today he decides to leave class early and hang out with some of his old friends. I don't really mind these girls, they are all really nice sisters but what I got pissed at was the fact that he said he was going to be home at 4 and I didnt hear anything from him until 5:30 ( we were suppose to go out) and that was when I came home to find him passed out on the bed. He took my vodka over to their house and got so shitty he threw up there and then preceded to come home and make a fool out of himself in front of my parents. I don't take his weed and go hang out with my friends, and If I even wanted to I would ask. Sometimes I feel like he is just using me. For sex, a home to live in near school, and for rides. I know he isn't but those thoughts do tend to cross my mind from time to time when shit happens like this I love him so much but,He can be so hypocritical it pushes me to the edge. I just don't know what to do.
I need more girl time. With my old Friends, who I like so much better than my new ones.
The other night I was at the seven hanging out with shavonne and cassi and I decided to leave really early so I could pick sam up on time or better yet, just wait for him to get off work. When I arrived, after speeding to make sure I wasn't late, He comes up to the car and says "I'm just going to ride with travis, okay". I didn't say anything because I didnt want to make a scene but that really made me so mad. was I overreacting?
Anways, today he decides to leave class early and hang out with some of his old friends. I don't really mind these girls, they are all really nice sisters but what I got pissed at was the fact that he said he was going to be home at 4 and I didnt hear anything from him until 5:30 ( we were suppose to go out) and that was when I came home to find him passed out on the bed. He took my vodka over to their house and got so shitty he threw up there and then preceded to come home and make a fool out of himself in front of my parents. I don't take his weed and go hang out with my friends, and If I even wanted to I would ask. Sometimes I feel like he is just using me. For sex, a home to live in near school, and for rides. I know he isn't but those thoughts do tend to cross my mind from time to time when shit happens like this I love him so much but,He can be so hypocritical it pushes me to the edge. I just don't know what to do.
I need more girl time. With my old Friends, who I like so much better than my new ones.