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agg. lately i think ive been falling apart.
i dont know whats going on with me but whatever it is. im hating it a lot.
me and corey are going out now and i think he asked me out too soon, and i didnt want to say no to him becuase i didnt want to be mean, or like upset him. i mean dont get me wrong, i liked what i saw and what i knew about him, so far. but i dont think things are working out. for example, new years wasnt really all that great of a time for me becuase it was just like an other normal night, caity was with tim and i was with corey. and all me and corey really did was watch a movie and listen to caity and tim laugh or whatever. it was just i derno. boring i guess. and i have no idea what im goign tod o about this whole corey thing. becuase not to make me sound like im some kind of perfect saint (becuase we all know i not) but he gets annoying sometimes and i dont know what ot od. i dont want ot break up with him becuase it would seem like i led him on, and i dont want to be mean to him. i want to just be his friend for now. ugh i just dont know what to fucking do
maybe im just thinking too much into all of this
i got to thinking last night..
the only person ive been "with" that ive actually liked and really, i mean really, wanted to be around forever was .. mike. ugh. i know that sounds bad (if you know who mike is) but i just i dont know. he was just prefect to me. (not saying that anyone else wasnt) but when we were together we had a lot of fun and we could just talk for hours and stuff and we wouldnt run out of things to say. and he and i just bonded. and then of course he fucked me over.
ugh. why does EVERYTHING suck for me so much.
i just want to get out of this whole life. im always worriing baout something .. becuase somethings always going wrong for me. school. friends. boyfriends. family. my sanity. i dont know what the fuck im going to do. and its really getting to me.
aksdjfa;lskdfjskdjf;aldkfj;oeiagt;isdjvmlxcn,m.n.
yeah..
by the way
happy new year .. and stuff.
ugh :(
i dont know whats going on with me but whatever it is. im hating it a lot.
me and corey are going out now and i think he asked me out too soon, and i didnt want to say no to him becuase i didnt want to be mean, or like upset him. i mean dont get me wrong, i liked what i saw and what i knew about him, so far. but i dont think things are working out. for example, new years wasnt really all that great of a time for me becuase it was just like an other normal night, caity was with tim and i was with corey. and all me and corey really did was watch a movie and listen to caity and tim laugh or whatever. it was just i derno. boring i guess. and i have no idea what im goign tod o about this whole corey thing. becuase not to make me sound like im some kind of perfect saint (becuase we all know i not) but he gets annoying sometimes and i dont know what ot od. i dont want ot break up with him becuase it would seem like i led him on, and i dont want to be mean to him. i want to just be his friend for now. ugh i just dont know what to fucking do
maybe im just thinking too much into all of this
i got to thinking last night..
the only person ive been "with" that ive actually liked and really, i mean really, wanted to be around forever was .. mike. ugh. i know that sounds bad (if you know who mike is) but i just i dont know. he was just prefect to me. (not saying that anyone else wasnt) but when we were together we had a lot of fun and we could just talk for hours and stuff and we wouldnt run out of things to say. and he and i just bonded. and then of course he fucked me over.
ugh. why does EVERYTHING suck for me so much.
i just want to get out of this whole life. im always worriing baout something .. becuase somethings always going wrong for me. school. friends. boyfriends. family. my sanity. i dont know what the fuck im going to do. and its really getting to me.
aksdjfa;lskdfjskdjf;aldkfj;oeiagt;isdjvmlxcn,m.n.
yeah..
by the way
happy new year .. and stuff.
ugh :(