Sep 25, 2004 20:26
So how long has it been since an informative, good, or deep update?
a long time, and I feel like writing but I don't know what.
I dyed my hair a deep red/purple today. it's hot.
Well on a more serious note,
So much is going on, so much is here, so much exists, yet I don't think any of it's real.
It is a sad thing my mind sometimes. You see, my main issue at the moment is believing that I'm worthy. Worthy of a lot that I have, especially someone wanting to be with me and feeling the things that they do. As last entry states, it is so much easier to believe in my depression, and that I am sad and lonely, than to believe that I could actually really be this happy, and actually have someone that wonderful want to be with me.
Yeah...
So my mind is scattered once again, like raindrops on a sidewalk.
I wrote something the other day that scared me. Those strong emotions that I shouldn't be feeling.
I do believe it shall only take a matter of time before I realize what's actually going on. I mean I haven't really felt anything since Jake's been gone and that was a year or so ago. It's all so new. Just one more star to wish on.