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so its 3:30am..and im still awake. this royally sucks :( i cant sleep...one, im not tired enough, and two, i know once im laying in bed..alone in the dark, thoughts are going to carry me away..away to a place i dont wanna be right now :( and the nightmares are going to start back up again. forcing me to wake up sweating, crying, and finding it hard to breath. i hate to sound so emo and to just release it all in here. i just need somewhere to release all of this..better than writing it all down than doing something stupid..which i must admit, ive thought about doing stuff all day. its driving me crazy. once again im back to hating life..this emotional rollercoaster never stops. fuck man