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i did this in my other journal, and im going to do it here too, but im writing different stuff. lol im bored!!
1. Madison Kaitlyn ; You are EVERYTHING to me. you are my pride and joy, i would give you anything to make you happy. i have the best kid in the whole world. and i cant thank god enough for the miracle he gave me =) amazing. there are so many things about you.. i can go on forever<3 i cant even express the love i have for you, its amazing what 1 little human being could do to a person. i will try and be the best mother to you i can, i will give you what you want to make you happy. and i will be here forever for you. please dont ever forget that. i love you princess -- so much, and to death<3
2. Courtney ; my sister, my best friend, my role model. i love you.. we have had many ups and downs.. but look how close we are. you and gary mean so much to me. i have the best brother and sister in the world. i really lucked out, in fact i have the best family in the world. Kolbe is lucky to have you as a mother. and you should be proud of what you have done, your an excellent mom, and im proud, and mommy would be too. thanks for everything you have done for me and madison. you mean alot to both of us. you are madisons best friend =) i hope we never loose our bond. because it means alot to me. i love you courtney leigh!<3 and my godson is the most amazing. he is sucha smart bright little boy. and you really should be proud. i love you.
3. Gary ; my "little" brother, what the hell would i do without you? like i said in courtneys.. i really lucked out.. i have the best brother and sister. you are an amazing person,, i cant believe the stuff you do for madison. you have a heart of gold. and thank you so very much<3 im so grateful. i hope i can pay you back 1 day. and i know you have good intentions. thanks for being so amazing to madison. she needs someone like you in her life. thanks gar.. and i love you very much
4. Dad ; god. i dont know where to start with you. i love you. when that happened to you last summer, i didnt think i was going to have you anymore, and it so unbearable. i would never be able to live without you. when mommy died, our bond grew so tight. and i dont even want to think about my life without you in it. i would be so lost. people dont know what they are missing until they loose a parent. you always did so much with us, and you still do. i cant begin to tell you how much i apericate what you do for me and madison, you have helped me in so many ways. and thank you. at the end of the day...all you have is family
5. Mandy ; i love you. you are my sister, i dont care what anyone says.. we have been through hell and back.. but we have wonderful memories! and i cant thank you enough for everything, you have always been there through it all.. thanks for choosing me to be michaels godmother.. i love that little boy, hes so wonderful. i wish i spent more time with him though... but now that im not employed ill be there more often. =) i love you PT, and thanks again ... dont ever forget our memories. <3
6. Nyki ; your an awesome friend, and i love you. we have been through soo much shit, good and bad. but im happy everything worked out.. and me and you are close again. im happy i have someone to listen to me bitch and complain all the time. =) it means alot to me. thanks alot for everything. i know we will be friends for awhile. and i hope you know i am always going to be here to listen to you bitch and cry. you and ricky will be back together..it always happens that way. lol =) love you pumpkin.
7. Ted ; i miss you. madison misses you.as a matter of fact we all miss you. but you have an amazing purpose to not be here. i just wish you would realize that some people you think care about you, really dont. but oh well thats not my place to tell you that. anyways, it kind of bothers me that we all have been friends for 9 years and you cant write a letter or call.. but you can write a letter to someone that doesnt care about you. and cant stand you. it kinda sucks, but we now know this, when you come home and trying to hang out with us, and we dont want anything to do with you.. because you dont want anything to do with us.. dont be rude. oh well, besides all that i love you. i have to love you. we were together for how long? and madison thinks so damn highly of you, you were the father she never had. and misses you so much. she talks about you so much. but i hope everything is going good for you. and i wish you the best of luck in iraq and i hope you come home safe, to your family. and the people YOU love.
8. Kolbe & Michael ; you 2 are my little handsome boys. i love you guys. you guys have the best mothers in the world. i cant wait til you all get older so we can tell you our embarrassing fun stories. =) i love you boys so much. and im so happy to be a part of both of your lives. i will always be here for you guys if you ever need me. <3
9. Mom ; god, i miss you. there isnt a day that goes by i dont think of you. you left us to early. and cant even describe the hurt i have sometimes when i want nothing more than to talk to my mother and i dont have one. there are so many times i reach for the phone and i stop myself. i wish you were here still. madison talks about you all the time. and it breaks my heart. i know you loved all of us, and i believe you stuck it out for 2 more years to make sure madison was in good hands, you would be so proud of me mom. i am doing soo good with this now. i hardly need help anymore. i just wish you could see if yourself. thank you for everything. my amazing childhood,and everything you did for madison... i love you soo much. please watch over this family.. and make sure nothing bad happens to us. and save us a spot up there with you. i love you mom, and i miss you more than anything in this world.
Rich ; you dont deserve to be in this. i just want to tell you i hate your guts. your a POS father. and madison doesnt need you. there is 2 many people is this world that would do anything for your daughter, and theres you.. a deadbeat asshole. im done begging you to be a part of her life, you havent called me over a month.. you are probably waiting for me to call you, but guess what sweety. dont hold your breath, you arent worth shit to me. thanks for all your help. it was a waste. and thanks for offering me money for your daughter. she doesnt need it anyways. your money is so fucking presious to you, god forbid you give her money instead of going to the bar, or buying yourself a freakin game. wow, you are going to be 25 tomorrow, try acting like it assface. i bet you have no problem supporting the other 3 kids you have, because the mothers are willing to fuck you everynight. please. i dont want your shit. you make me sick. and i hate you. drop dead. thanks for the christmas and birthday presents you got for madison with that money you told ur sister you needed to get the kids presents. your worthless... god. i wish you would die.
that took me 3 days to do. lol
1. Madison Kaitlyn ; You are EVERYTHING to me. you are my pride and joy, i would give you anything to make you happy. i have the best kid in the whole world. and i cant thank god enough for the miracle he gave me =) amazing. there are so many things about you.. i can go on forever<3 i cant even express the love i have for you, its amazing what 1 little human being could do to a person. i will try and be the best mother to you i can, i will give you what you want to make you happy. and i will be here forever for you. please dont ever forget that. i love you princess -- so much, and to death<3
2. Courtney ; my sister, my best friend, my role model. i love you.. we have had many ups and downs.. but look how close we are. you and gary mean so much to me. i have the best brother and sister in the world. i really lucked out, in fact i have the best family in the world. Kolbe is lucky to have you as a mother. and you should be proud of what you have done, your an excellent mom, and im proud, and mommy would be too. thanks for everything you have done for me and madison. you mean alot to both of us. you are madisons best friend =) i hope we never loose our bond. because it means alot to me. i love you courtney leigh!<3 and my godson is the most amazing. he is sucha smart bright little boy. and you really should be proud. i love you.
3. Gary ; my "little" brother, what the hell would i do without you? like i said in courtneys.. i really lucked out.. i have the best brother and sister. you are an amazing person,, i cant believe the stuff you do for madison. you have a heart of gold. and thank you so very much<3 im so grateful. i hope i can pay you back 1 day. and i know you have good intentions. thanks for being so amazing to madison. she needs someone like you in her life. thanks gar.. and i love you very much
4. Dad ; god. i dont know where to start with you. i love you. when that happened to you last summer, i didnt think i was going to have you anymore, and it so unbearable. i would never be able to live without you. when mommy died, our bond grew so tight. and i dont even want to think about my life without you in it. i would be so lost. people dont know what they are missing until they loose a parent. you always did so much with us, and you still do. i cant begin to tell you how much i apericate what you do for me and madison, you have helped me in so many ways. and thank you. at the end of the day...all you have is family
5. Mandy ; i love you. you are my sister, i dont care what anyone says.. we have been through hell and back.. but we have wonderful memories! and i cant thank you enough for everything, you have always been there through it all.. thanks for choosing me to be michaels godmother.. i love that little boy, hes so wonderful. i wish i spent more time with him though... but now that im not employed ill be there more often. =) i love you PT, and thanks again ... dont ever forget our memories. <3
6. Nyki ; your an awesome friend, and i love you. we have been through soo much shit, good and bad. but im happy everything worked out.. and me and you are close again. im happy i have someone to listen to me bitch and complain all the time. =) it means alot to me. thanks alot for everything. i know we will be friends for awhile. and i hope you know i am always going to be here to listen to you bitch and cry. you and ricky will be back together..it always happens that way. lol =) love you pumpkin.
7. Ted ; i miss you. madison misses you.as a matter of fact we all miss you. but you have an amazing purpose to not be here. i just wish you would realize that some people you think care about you, really dont. but oh well thats not my place to tell you that. anyways, it kind of bothers me that we all have been friends for 9 years and you cant write a letter or call.. but you can write a letter to someone that doesnt care about you. and cant stand you. it kinda sucks, but we now know this, when you come home and trying to hang out with us, and we dont want anything to do with you.. because you dont want anything to do with us.. dont be rude. oh well, besides all that i love you. i have to love you. we were together for how long? and madison thinks so damn highly of you, you were the father she never had. and misses you so much. she talks about you so much. but i hope everything is going good for you. and i wish you the best of luck in iraq and i hope you come home safe, to your family. and the people YOU love.
8. Kolbe & Michael ; you 2 are my little handsome boys. i love you guys. you guys have the best mothers in the world. i cant wait til you all get older so we can tell you our embarrassing fun stories. =) i love you boys so much. and im so happy to be a part of both of your lives. i will always be here for you guys if you ever need me. <3
9. Mom ; god, i miss you. there isnt a day that goes by i dont think of you. you left us to early. and cant even describe the hurt i have sometimes when i want nothing more than to talk to my mother and i dont have one. there are so many times i reach for the phone and i stop myself. i wish you were here still. madison talks about you all the time. and it breaks my heart. i know you loved all of us, and i believe you stuck it out for 2 more years to make sure madison was in good hands, you would be so proud of me mom. i am doing soo good with this now. i hardly need help anymore. i just wish you could see if yourself. thank you for everything. my amazing childhood,and everything you did for madison... i love you soo much. please watch over this family.. and make sure nothing bad happens to us. and save us a spot up there with you. i love you mom, and i miss you more than anything in this world.
Rich ; you dont deserve to be in this. i just want to tell you i hate your guts. your a POS father. and madison doesnt need you. there is 2 many people is this world that would do anything for your daughter, and theres you.. a deadbeat asshole. im done begging you to be a part of her life, you havent called me over a month.. you are probably waiting for me to call you, but guess what sweety. dont hold your breath, you arent worth shit to me. thanks for all your help. it was a waste. and thanks for offering me money for your daughter. she doesnt need it anyways. your money is so fucking presious to you, god forbid you give her money instead of going to the bar, or buying yourself a freakin game. wow, you are going to be 25 tomorrow, try acting like it assface. i bet you have no problem supporting the other 3 kids you have, because the mothers are willing to fuck you everynight. please. i dont want your shit. you make me sick. and i hate you. drop dead. thanks for the christmas and birthday presents you got for madison with that money you told ur sister you needed to get the kids presents. your worthless... god. i wish you would die.
that took me 3 days to do. lol