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Wow.
It's amazing to me that this journal still exists. The years since I'd stopped updating feel like a hundred - and each so full of its own trials and tribulations - that how in the world could something so small, so forgotten, still be right here?
It was strange, reading over this...I'd almost forgotten that period of my life. When I had just gotten back into therapy, when I thought I could turn things around then and go back to Campolindo, to be back in Choir - my days at Campolindo are just a blur of confusing and strange recollections. And cringe-worthy...when I remember some of the things I said or did in that time, it's just mortifying.
But I don't regret myself. I don't regret that part of my history, because I had never really known what it meant to be lost - because I was still aware (or thought I was) of who I honestly was, whether admirable or not. Because history's over with - and because over time it becomes twisted and unclear anyway. I'll never regret myself.
I doubt if anyone will read this or if any of you from back in the day are even still active on livejournal. I do not feel the need to detail the last few years. Suffice to say, I have changed.
I live in Oakland now. My parents just moved to North Carolina. I just started up at a community college, Laney, and I'm only taking one class this semester as I'm in a transitional period of getting my life together but I love my class. Psychology. I'm going to major in Psychology, which I'm sure comes as no surprise ;-)...I am seriously considering a double major in Psych and Creative Writing, but I don't want to get ahead of myself. For now I just need to take things a day at a time. Make the money I need to live, do my homework, go to doctor's appointments, get things together.
I have a livejournal that I'm active on. You're welcome to add me if I knew you before - my livejournal is www.livejournal.com/users/buddhasavedme . I'd love to catch up with you, and if you add me, I will add you back. It's a fairly personal journal, so it's heavily filtered and mostly friends only.
I hope you are all well.
It's amazing to me that this journal still exists. The years since I'd stopped updating feel like a hundred - and each so full of its own trials and tribulations - that how in the world could something so small, so forgotten, still be right here?
It was strange, reading over this...I'd almost forgotten that period of my life. When I had just gotten back into therapy, when I thought I could turn things around then and go back to Campolindo, to be back in Choir - my days at Campolindo are just a blur of confusing and strange recollections. And cringe-worthy...when I remember some of the things I said or did in that time, it's just mortifying.
But I don't regret myself. I don't regret that part of my history, because I had never really known what it meant to be lost - because I was still aware (or thought I was) of who I honestly was, whether admirable or not. Because history's over with - and because over time it becomes twisted and unclear anyway. I'll never regret myself.
I doubt if anyone will read this or if any of you from back in the day are even still active on livejournal. I do not feel the need to detail the last few years. Suffice to say, I have changed.
I live in Oakland now. My parents just moved to North Carolina. I just started up at a community college, Laney, and I'm only taking one class this semester as I'm in a transitional period of getting my life together but I love my class. Psychology. I'm going to major in Psychology, which I'm sure comes as no surprise ;-)...I am seriously considering a double major in Psych and Creative Writing, but I don't want to get ahead of myself. For now I just need to take things a day at a time. Make the money I need to live, do my homework, go to doctor's appointments, get things together.
I have a livejournal that I'm active on. You're welcome to add me if I knew you before - my livejournal is www.livejournal.com/users/buddhasavedme . I'd love to catch up with you, and if you add me, I will add you back. It's a fairly personal journal, so it's heavily filtered and mostly friends only.
I hope you are all well.