last night's junk from xanga- mardi gras recap coming soon!
I am trying to do homework but I can't stop thinking about stuff. What is it that makes it so hard for people to believe they are worth it- myself not excluded. Why is it so hard for us to belive that we deserve the good things that happen to us and that we do not always deserve the bad? Why do we not belive people when they tell us we are good at something?
Obviously not every person has issues with for lack of a better term self-worth but it's pretty wide spread and I'm tired of it. I'm tired of not beliving I'm worth it. I think that mixed in with all the crap there are some very real things I have got to offer. It's beliving they are there that seems to be the problem sometimes. I deserve more than what I give myself.
OK so that is alot of rambly bull shit. Here's kinda why. I am getting published for this crummy little thing I wrote for a participation grade ( ie not even a you did good on this assignment grade) in a booklet for the art museum on campus. I just don't get why I can't see what someone else did and why they are now publishing this thing. There must be something good about it, therefor there must be something good about my abilities as a writer. I just wish I could see it.
Obviously not every person has issues with for lack of a better term self-worth but it's pretty wide spread and I'm tired of it. I'm tired of not beliving I'm worth it. I think that mixed in with all the crap there are some very real things I have got to offer. It's beliving they are there that seems to be the problem sometimes. I deserve more than what I give myself.
OK so that is alot of rambly bull shit. Here's kinda why. I am getting published for this crummy little thing I wrote for a participation grade ( ie not even a you did good on this assignment grade) in a booklet for the art museum on campus. I just don't get why I can't see what someone else did and why they are now publishing this thing. There must be something good about it, therefor there must be something good about my abilities as a writer. I just wish I could see it.