LONG TiME N0 SPEAK.
Yeah, so i know i haven't wrote in a while but a bitch is busy if i could get money on tha computer i wouldve been updated but you know ya qotta work for what you get so i been out here makin & then stackin.
-[[ ITS OFFICIAL BABY ]]-
i can`t picture my life without you cause it gets scary when i'm down i need you around in a hurry and calm me down from my hard times and my worries ill hold you close to me late at night face to face we meet and greet and everythings alright ya nothin less then a dime when you in my sight and through tha dark days you know how to bring tha light i remember tha first time i kissed ya my first experience WITH LOVE IS WHEN I FINALLY HIT YA i wanna spend everday of tha rest of my life wit cha we break up to make up we cant stay apart it feels like forever when we spend a day apart so beggin you to come back as i play my part its a shame how you just had your way with my heart i luh ya miss mary. & when we out in tha crowds i still hold you like im proud you make me feel like im in heavin walkin on clouds you stay fresh new tags i keep you with new bags you make a girl feel good i cant help but brag and i know my SO CALLED FRIENDS try to hit you while im gone play with you while im gone split you while im gone but you always stay faithful cause this is ya home and you know ya girl i never treat you wrong and my mom gets pissed off when i bring you around she always hit us with "yall get outta my house right now" if she only knew how i was shacked up back when i was a kid and how late nights i was sneaky went IN & OUT of tha crib to my nose your scent is just as a sweet as a rose i wasn't impressed by them others so you tha one i chose to roll with , settle down and go with i luh ya miss mary THATS WHY I SHOW IT AND MAKE SURE YOU KNOW IT. You take away all my bad times put a smile on my face through my sad times been down with me way before i had shine i feel like i owe you half tha cash from these grinds
( i wasn't gonna talk about this here man but uhhh )
I USED TO ABUSE YA AND TRY TO MISUSE YA we exchanged a bunch of blows you used to trip when i didnt want no more seeds i had enough stress on my life PLEASE BELIEVE i lost a lot of paper when i moved you to keego harbor broke you off a bunch of green you had me trippin but still we maintained to stick together through ups and downs and when i didnt have nobody else you was around it all worked out in tha end you payed me back times ten when i was broke on my ass you gave me cash to spend and hit that highway with tha pack of gin and put me on my feet with tha stacks of benz i want you in my life til death do us part cause youve been down from tha start u deserve more fame for ya art { & THATS REAL }
Last night was smooth as hell me & deontra woke up saturday mornin..had to do tha usual..blew a L started tha day and met back up with her later on. Rode around posted up at tha sunoco on perry..foolin for most hours they had tha gin but i couldnt even fucks with it..eventually left from jinx and marc and went with d's cousinn.. fuck details we ended up ridin til 7am and we threw ourselves into tha beds at d's grannys..i feel like shit i guess you can say i have a hangover i never had one before but DAMN . We was supposed to get a room but then i couldnt get a hold of earl cause my phone died. MY BADDD!! life is good .
SO MANY MUHFUCKAS WAS OFF THA PILL LAST NIGHT. EXSTACY IS THA NEW MILLENIUM CRACK ...tryna tell you . its real
I lost my keychain that had my room keys on there and now i cant even get into my room right now this shit is fucked up
GOTTA GET MY HOMECOMING DRESS TOMORROW.
" this is MY journal and i can write what i want to "
WHOLE CAR STRAPPED & I AINT TALKIN SEATBELTS
they told me love was bline so why cant i picture this nigga mine???
yeah i dig em but i fiqure, im wastin his time im runnin from relationships scared of commitment mad at monogamy , sexually im a misfit but this shit's way too much 4 me..usually i can take em and make em a cut buddy i aint tryna act now im bein 100% real really, i just wanted to kick it and chill with him but tha picture got bigger before i could even paint it THOUGHTS GOT DEEPER before a qurl could think a playa like me on this strange aint it? one thing about ya feelings is this, you can't change it! YOUR PRECEPTION on me i dont think i can MAINTAIN we flirtin with disaster, this game we playin is DANGEROUS they all neel down yeh..to them im famous but sometimes i think we should remained strangers
LISTEN TO ME
Still i respect it to let it go give it time give it room to breath and let it grow ill just let him know when im ready to change ill let him know ..hate to say it but til then be friends and nothin more even though another time another life another place i sear i know we coulda been great but rather than great ya lil heart take tha frown off ya face so i can treat you right im willin to wait and shit aint fake, i know it sound funny but i think i got a piece of whats up in heaven so to keep from blockin my blessings think i better back up last thing III need is bad luck but if my life was perfect..i woulda had him i guess i dont deserve it my niggaz tell me you aint worth it .. sometimes there wrong sometimes they aint but i gotta hit tha surface ill holla when i holla act like i dont see ya ..wont even call ya
i said LISTEN
BUT I AINT TRIPPIN BITCH CUZ TRUTH IS REALLY YOU DONT KNOW ME
its a lot of fucked up shit that goes down man
you dont even know tha half
i been in & outta trouble since an adolescents spoiled rotten dead fresh with no daddy present i got one uncle name luis and he keeps it straight 7 & 8 im countin money while hes movin weight my daddy sent me clothes and always told me to come see him i say alright but still i feel like i dont need em..they sendin letters home from school, nobody reads mines..my uncle did 12 years F.E.D time then it became a rebellion heard of crack sellin tha littlest thing on tha corner is a mac 11 after school i hear moms ask homework i say alrite ma but look i got my own work started interactin with fiends at tha age of 15 like damn why do trouble gotta come to me like this but on tha real, it aint even have to be like this MISTAKES made on this road to WEALTH i still aint forgave myself ay and what i am today I MADE MYSELF but i still aint forgave myself for runnin to tha grave gettin closer to death for anyone whoever wondered how i felt.. I STILL AINT FORGAVE MYSELF at 15 man thought i knew everything slangin slabs trappin hard i remain low key hardheaded yeh...man i aint listen to anything im gettin MONEY so IM RIGHT and i got plenty game but hey i promise ima make it cause im damn good ima get us out these apartments and off tha can goods here comes 16 my introduction to womanhood mama had a dream..blue lights behind me what am i gonna do cause i got 2 pounds of weed and a 380 too i guess everything will be alrite if i just keep it cool "how ya doin officer what ya mean why i aint in school can you search tha car? yeah but, i rather that you didnt besides its just a waste of ya time cause aint nothin in it I GUESS THATS WHEN SHE SEEN IT THAT I AINT KNOW SHIT when i ended up stuck in a place where freedom i wasnt gonna get
YEAH, FOR ANYBODY WHO EVER WONDERED HOW I FELT ANYBODY WHO EVER WONDERED WHATS WRONG WIT ME HERE IT IS 316'S OF WHATS IN THA HEART OF B
GET ON YA JOB ITS MOTIVATION...
SOMETIMES I WONDER?? IF GOD SUPPOSED TO WATCH OVER US , TAKE CARE OF US AND LET NOTHIN HAPPEN TO US, WHYYYY? DID IT HAVE TO HAPPEN LIKE THAT TO MY FRIEND ...I WANNA PRAY 4 EM...YALL GOTTA STAY UP REMEMBER WE BETTER THEN THIS, IM NOT LETTIN YOU GO 2 WASTE PLEASE BELIEVE YOU WILL BE RECYCLED.<3U