recently recent.
I've embarked on a journey into the history of how I fell apart in life.
but this time, I'm a lot strong than I was last time. And I've aged more into the "what I want, and what I don't want" problems.
Things in my general life are going great, Morgan and I just got approved for a 2 bedroom in downtown, a block from work, HUGE loft, 725 a month, perfect area...High ceilings, 2 bathrooms. It's great, can't wait to move in. Work's wonderful, I've secured my spot and there's no way I could get let go. We have a new shop opening in December that I'll be working at, then after that one's up and running, My boss is opening another one in California.
Rory is doing wonderfully. Everyday when I go to spend time with him, as soon as he sees me at the door, he starts smiling and making the cutest little baby sounds. I've been getting him sooo many stud outfits. Babygap is a great store...I'll finally be done with this DHS hell on the 19, that'll make life much better for all of us.
I slowed my drinking down an incredible about. In the last month and a half all I've had are a few glasses of wine, and a whole lot of book reading.
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Which brings me to my next update; I've met a "someone" who scares the shit out of me. Not scare as in a ghost or something, but scary because I know his type. The book worm, super talented at everything he does, more intelligent than he'll let on to anyone he's not 100% comfortable with. The type that lays in bed with a girl he's interested in all day, asking questions and having those way too deep to be shared (especially sober, and with a girl you've known a month at most) conversations.
I really like spending time with him, but it's like I'm battling him and myself to try and keep my distance. Not to meantion his friends...One second theyre all for us, then the next theyre pulling me aside telling me I need to stop talking to him because they're worried I'll get hurt, or that he's just going to keep me in too deep.
Of course when I confront him about this, and I tell him I don't want things to get that way, he immediately says he'll solve it, and its his life and that "our business is ours only, and his friends need to stay out of it."-Heard that one before.
I haven't yet committed myself to being okay with this situation wholeheartedly yet because 1, it's early. 2, he's living with someone else that I will not put in a position to get hurt, and I refuse to be confronted by a woman and have to lie to her. 3, You can't lay a claim on me if you belong to someone else. If I'm "your girl", Thats it. I'm number one. Everyone knows this about my personality.
i'd put more to this, but he's on his way to this silly library and it's time for me to go.
Advice for my life: Don't give up.
<3
but this time, I'm a lot strong than I was last time. And I've aged more into the "what I want, and what I don't want" problems.
Things in my general life are going great, Morgan and I just got approved for a 2 bedroom in downtown, a block from work, HUGE loft, 725 a month, perfect area...High ceilings, 2 bathrooms. It's great, can't wait to move in. Work's wonderful, I've secured my spot and there's no way I could get let go. We have a new shop opening in December that I'll be working at, then after that one's up and running, My boss is opening another one in California.
Rory is doing wonderfully. Everyday when I go to spend time with him, as soon as he sees me at the door, he starts smiling and making the cutest little baby sounds. I've been getting him sooo many stud outfits. Babygap is a great store...I'll finally be done with this DHS hell on the 19, that'll make life much better for all of us.
I slowed my drinking down an incredible about. In the last month and a half all I've had are a few glasses of wine, and a whole lot of book reading.
---
Which brings me to my next update; I've met a "someone" who scares the shit out of me. Not scare as in a ghost or something, but scary because I know his type. The book worm, super talented at everything he does, more intelligent than he'll let on to anyone he's not 100% comfortable with. The type that lays in bed with a girl he's interested in all day, asking questions and having those way too deep to be shared (especially sober, and with a girl you've known a month at most) conversations.
I really like spending time with him, but it's like I'm battling him and myself to try and keep my distance. Not to meantion his friends...One second theyre all for us, then the next theyre pulling me aside telling me I need to stop talking to him because they're worried I'll get hurt, or that he's just going to keep me in too deep.
Of course when I confront him about this, and I tell him I don't want things to get that way, he immediately says he'll solve it, and its his life and that "our business is ours only, and his friends need to stay out of it."-Heard that one before.
I haven't yet committed myself to being okay with this situation wholeheartedly yet because 1, it's early. 2, he's living with someone else that I will not put in a position to get hurt, and I refuse to be confronted by a woman and have to lie to her. 3, You can't lay a claim on me if you belong to someone else. If I'm "your girl", Thats it. I'm number one. Everyone knows this about my personality.
i'd put more to this, but he's on his way to this silly library and it's time for me to go.
Advice for my life: Don't give up.
<3