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and what you do to me is oh so unfair

but i dont care
oh i dont care.

i love christopher
and despite raging uncertainties on his behalf
he loves me too

i miss him so much it aches
my heart is running on empty...

So i realized alot about myself in this time apart..
I realized how deep rooted my fears are
and why i fight back so much
and what the hell goes on in my head when i fuck up

and im just as jealous as him
and im just as scared as him
and im just as in love as him

i have to remember to be patient..not to push ... not to jump the gun.

I can wait
I can wait
I can wait