LJ saves old entries? I don't remember when I wrote this.
Well, it didn't start off so great. I was talking to Anthony last night for the first time in what feels like forever. We talked about a lot of things. I miss the boy like crazy, as hard as that may be to believe. After all, our history goes back 5 years. He is an amazing person, and as much as I laugh at his crazy stories, I still trust him. When he called me in the summer and told me all the things he did, I was confused and in a lot of shock, but it was comforting to know that after all these years someone who really knows me, good and bad, still loves me as much as he does. It gives me hope that maybe I'm not such an awful person after all.
Anyway, so I had a horrible dream about him last night. He died and I was the person to find him, and I woke up hysterically crying. I called Lynn and talked to her about it, got into a little argument but I think things will be okay. She's always been an amazing friend and as much as I want to sometimes, I can't imagine not having her in my life. So, Lynn if you see this. Thank you for everything you ever meant to me, and everything you still do.
Okay, so now for the great part of today. I feel like I'm back to being me. I'm in an amazing mood. I made myself a healthy breakfast, went to the gym, and even went tanning! The idea of me being ridiculously pale in Cali freaks me out. Lol. Although, I put on the bronser and now I have a bronze line on my arm because I didn't see that I didn't rub it in all the way, haha. I bought thin mints from the girlscouts outside of 711. Nostalgia get's the best of me. =] Then I went to blockbuster and saw Felix <33 My amazing cigarette guy. He might show up to do Stage Crew with me tomorrow. Turns out I've missed two days already! Wtf. Jamie left me a message but I was really confused and didn't understand what it said, so I deleted it. But I'm so excited to get back into it. Last year was so much fun and I made a lot of great friends there, let's hope this year is the same! =] It'll be really good for me to get back into my old habits. I rented The Departed at blockbuster, can't wait to watch it =] I wanted to see Man of the Year but they didn't have it. Anyone see it yet?
And in roughly hour I'll be at the movies with Mikey <3 who I haven't seen in over 3 years. We met through Shea, and hung out a couple times. I watched his old band and him play a couple times, they're awesome. So, I'm really excited to see him again.
"I've taken all I can take
And I cannot wait
We're wastin too much time
Bein strong, holdin on
Can't let it bring us down
My life with you means everything
So I won't give up that easily
Blowin away blowin away
Can make this something good?
Cause it's all misunderstood
Well I'll try to do to it right this time around
It's not over,
Try to do it right this time around
It's not over
But a part of me is dead and in the ground.
This love is killin me
But your the only one
It's not over. "
Anyway, so I had a horrible dream about him last night. He died and I was the person to find him, and I woke up hysterically crying. I called Lynn and talked to her about it, got into a little argument but I think things will be okay. She's always been an amazing friend and as much as I want to sometimes, I can't imagine not having her in my life. So, Lynn if you see this. Thank you for everything you ever meant to me, and everything you still do.
Okay, so now for the great part of today. I feel like I'm back to being me. I'm in an amazing mood. I made myself a healthy breakfast, went to the gym, and even went tanning! The idea of me being ridiculously pale in Cali freaks me out. Lol. Although, I put on the bronser and now I have a bronze line on my arm because I didn't see that I didn't rub it in all the way, haha. I bought thin mints from the girlscouts outside of 711. Nostalgia get's the best of me. =] Then I went to blockbuster and saw Felix <33 My amazing cigarette guy. He might show up to do Stage Crew with me tomorrow. Turns out I've missed two days already! Wtf. Jamie left me a message but I was really confused and didn't understand what it said, so I deleted it. But I'm so excited to get back into it. Last year was so much fun and I made a lot of great friends there, let's hope this year is the same! =] It'll be really good for me to get back into my old habits. I rented The Departed at blockbuster, can't wait to watch it =] I wanted to see Man of the Year but they didn't have it. Anyone see it yet?
And in roughly hour I'll be at the movies with Mikey <3 who I haven't seen in over 3 years. We met through Shea, and hung out a couple times. I watched his old band and him play a couple times, they're awesome. So, I'm really excited to see him again.
"I've taken all I can take
And I cannot wait
We're wastin too much time
Bein strong, holdin on
Can't let it bring us down
My life with you means everything
So I won't give up that easily
Blowin away blowin away
Can make this something good?
Cause it's all misunderstood
Well I'll try to do to it right this time around
It's not over,
Try to do it right this time around
It's not over
But a part of me is dead and in the ground.
This love is killin me
But your the only one
It's not over. "