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Okay, here's the deal.
but in picture form, because it's 4 in the morning and I can't sleep (and haven't since last Friday).
I want Rizzo's outfit so that I can catch me one of these
I think it's what I call the 'Cry Baby Walker hair' that really gets to me.
dream skirt.
and you know what I've decided? I'm going to wear heels and not feel bad about towering over most men.
I'm trying to revive my life very recently and being back at my moms temporarily feels so strange. Almost like I never left. Its a combination of things, like the smell of strawberries and cream shampoo, sleeping on the tiny couch that only allows one position, and the sound of my entire family under one roof again that really really gets to me. I mean, I don't mean to sound depressed, but really whats changed? I still work at the mall, drive the same car, learn the same lessons from the same people, I feel like I'm 20 again and the last four years I've wasted have yet to be wasted!
I haven't been after what I want, and who I really want to become due to fear. I never intended to leave alone, but plans change I suppose. Yes, I'm partially running away from a few issues, but mostly it's just time to go. I have nothing here that is my own.
What I fear more than anything is that it wont be enough. Where to next? Where is home?
Nah, that's not what I fear the most.
Where do you think my car will breakdown first? My bet lies with Ohio. Ha. Karma right?
I'm going to designate it as a female, because it sure is a bitch, and I know a thing or two about being a bitch. :(
I had to move my things myself this time, and if I could find the charger for my camera I would take a picture of the bruises in the crooks of my arms. I look like a junkie, and not sleeping due to a guilty screaming bitch of a conscience, I really look the part. Oh, not to mention that I have extremely blond hair too. I said it was only temporary, but its growing on me.
My sister is two centimeters dilated. She was hoping to have the baby today, it being Valentines Day, but I drempt it was going to be the 18th. We'll see. I also drempt that I made a high powered telescope out of cardboard and plastic, and stood in knee deep water in a warehouse, looking out through a hole cut in the ceiling, so....
I know drempt isn't a word, but I'll never get used to it.
My plan is to leave shortly after Madison is born, and I receive my tax refund. So I've got about two weeks. I have only 8 days left at the t-shirt place. I couldn't be more thrilled. Everyone has become the same person. I know what they will say before they say it. I cringe about 934 times a day. I think I'll put a dead fish in the ceiling.
JK!
Happy day!
...
but in picture form, because it's 4 in the morning and I can't sleep (and haven't since last Friday).
I want Rizzo's outfit so that I can catch me one of these
I think it's what I call the 'Cry Baby Walker hair' that really gets to me.
dream skirt.
and you know what I've decided? I'm going to wear heels and not feel bad about towering over most men.
I'm trying to revive my life very recently and being back at my moms temporarily feels so strange. Almost like I never left. Its a combination of things, like the smell of strawberries and cream shampoo, sleeping on the tiny couch that only allows one position, and the sound of my entire family under one roof again that really really gets to me. I mean, I don't mean to sound depressed, but really whats changed? I still work at the mall, drive the same car, learn the same lessons from the same people, I feel like I'm 20 again and the last four years I've wasted have yet to be wasted!
I haven't been after what I want, and who I really want to become due to fear. I never intended to leave alone, but plans change I suppose. Yes, I'm partially running away from a few issues, but mostly it's just time to go. I have nothing here that is my own.
What I fear more than anything is that it wont be enough. Where to next? Where is home?
Nah, that's not what I fear the most.
Where do you think my car will breakdown first? My bet lies with Ohio. Ha. Karma right?
I'm going to designate it as a female, because it sure is a bitch, and I know a thing or two about being a bitch. :(
I had to move my things myself this time, and if I could find the charger for my camera I would take a picture of the bruises in the crooks of my arms. I look like a junkie, and not sleeping due to a guilty screaming bitch of a conscience, I really look the part. Oh, not to mention that I have extremely blond hair too. I said it was only temporary, but its growing on me.
My sister is two centimeters dilated. She was hoping to have the baby today, it being Valentines Day, but I drempt it was going to be the 18th. We'll see. I also drempt that I made a high powered telescope out of cardboard and plastic, and stood in knee deep water in a warehouse, looking out through a hole cut in the ceiling, so....
I know drempt isn't a word, but I'll never get used to it.
My plan is to leave shortly after Madison is born, and I receive my tax refund. So I've got about two weeks. I have only 8 days left at the t-shirt place. I couldn't be more thrilled. Everyone has become the same person. I know what they will say before they say it. I cringe about 934 times a day. I think I'll put a dead fish in the ceiling.
JK!
Happy day!
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