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I wish I drove already, and/or did it a few years ago. So, I wasn't such a burden to my family.
Just told my brother I'd quit to make him happy, and spoke up. As usual, I was wrong in everything I said. I'm always wrong. Everyone else, no matter who it is, is always right. I feel stupid and alone. Pretty much just the family joke, dye my hair get laughed at. Get piercings get laughed at, what else is new.
I feel bad since others are probably going through worse, but had to get it out somehow.
I also realized this year just how worthless I am. I've hurt enough people in the thoughtless decisions I've made.
I honestelly think that if I was never born or was involved in some people's lives they would be better off. From the wrong things I've done, and being me.
I know my mom and brothers would benefit.
Yeah, I finally did get driving lessons set up. Yay. Too late I guess.
I hope I don't wake up in the morning.........
Just told my brother I'd quit to make him happy, and spoke up. As usual, I was wrong in everything I said. I'm always wrong. Everyone else, no matter who it is, is always right. I feel stupid and alone. Pretty much just the family joke, dye my hair get laughed at. Get piercings get laughed at, what else is new.
I feel bad since others are probably going through worse, but had to get it out somehow.
I also realized this year just how worthless I am. I've hurt enough people in the thoughtless decisions I've made.
I honestelly think that if I was never born or was involved in some people's lives they would be better off. From the wrong things I've done, and being me.
I know my mom and brothers would benefit.
Yeah, I finally did get driving lessons set up. Yay. Too late I guess.
I hope I don't wake up in the morning.........