venting
well lets see. i got my progress report like last week & im failing english. i havent even done any of my homework since then. my prioritys are really fucked up right now. i basically dont care about school at all. & i need to. certain people at school really piss me off too much damn drama i swear.
im losing my bestfriend. yea i havent seen her in almost 2 weeks now & she bailed on me again this weekend this time for a guy =/ she was going through a hard time & didnt even call me to tell me about it i had to find out from one of her other friends. basically she doesnt need me anymore. shes doin just fine & thats cool whatever im happy for her.
my mom & dad just need to get divorced they are like both cheating on each other its so freaking obvious i hate them so much. i hope they know their really fucking me up in the head by doing this shit. its like rediculous that they supposedly love each other but they could do this to one another blah it pisses me off. someone needs to do something. but then again if they got a divorced me & ryan would be screwed because we'd have nothing. my mom barely works & she works for my dad so duh he'd probably fire her & then she'd never ever be able to support me & ryan. but god i just want all this to stop they're being really stupid.
im tired of people calling me a slut. especially people that dont even know me. i mean im sorry that i have a hard time trusting guys or picking the right ones or keeping them from cheating on me. excuse me for dating more than 1 person in the last 8 months. im just looking for someone to keep me happy. [which i found, i think? i hope ♥cody] & im sorry that you have to call me a slut just to make yourself feel better about lying to your girlfriend i mean damn it was so long ago she didnt even care just wanted the truth & you just couldnt do it. grow up. your fucking 18 years old start acting like it.
i think thats all for the complaining & bitching.
me & the boyfriend are doing really good. im really happy for that. i see him pretty much every single day & i never get sick of him. i love being around him. just the way i feel in his arms is amazing. & the look in his eyes right before he kisses me omg best thing ever. just everything about him is wonderful. he spoils me with taco bell & starbucks =) my parents like him. & my brother? well he has his moments. but really none of that matters cause i like him enough for all 3 of them & then some. he is the only person i can really go to about anything & not be afraid of who he'll tell or anything. he wont judge me. he just listens. i love that.
i got to see my wifey on sunday. shes the best ever. i love her with all my heart & shes just the cutest thing ever. our honey moon is gonna be freaking sweet. i cant wait.
my shrink is amazing & i love her she is always there when i need her. even tho we barely talk anymore [which needs to change, soon] i know i could go to her & she'd be there to help me. i love her. i hope she knows that im there for her whenever she needs me but im not sure she knows it. 31 more days & we'll basically be inseperable. i cant wait.
i love you ♥
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brandi im sorry for what i had earlier. im just pised that sean is calling me a slut & stuff & you act like you dont care. i mean im not a slut. i told the truth. hes the one who lied. & he even said that calling me a slut made him feel better about himself. its bullshit. i hate him so much. but im sorry for saying you dont trust me cause thats not it. im just pised at him & took it out on you. im sorry. i love you bran
im losing my bestfriend. yea i havent seen her in almost 2 weeks now & she bailed on me again this weekend this time for a guy =/ she was going through a hard time & didnt even call me to tell me about it i had to find out from one of her other friends. basically she doesnt need me anymore. shes doin just fine & thats cool whatever im happy for her.
my mom & dad just need to get divorced they are like both cheating on each other its so freaking obvious i hate them so much. i hope they know their really fucking me up in the head by doing this shit. its like rediculous that they supposedly love each other but they could do this to one another blah it pisses me off. someone needs to do something. but then again if they got a divorced me & ryan would be screwed because we'd have nothing. my mom barely works & she works for my dad so duh he'd probably fire her & then she'd never ever be able to support me & ryan. but god i just want all this to stop they're being really stupid.
im tired of people calling me a slut. especially people that dont even know me. i mean im sorry that i have a hard time trusting guys or picking the right ones or keeping them from cheating on me. excuse me for dating more than 1 person in the last 8 months. im just looking for someone to keep me happy. [which i found, i think? i hope ♥cody] & im sorry that you have to call me a slut just to make yourself feel better about lying to your girlfriend i mean damn it was so long ago she didnt even care just wanted the truth & you just couldnt do it. grow up. your fucking 18 years old start acting like it.
i think thats all for the complaining & bitching.
me & the boyfriend are doing really good. im really happy for that. i see him pretty much every single day & i never get sick of him. i love being around him. just the way i feel in his arms is amazing. & the look in his eyes right before he kisses me omg best thing ever. just everything about him is wonderful. he spoils me with taco bell & starbucks =) my parents like him. & my brother? well he has his moments. but really none of that matters cause i like him enough for all 3 of them & then some. he is the only person i can really go to about anything & not be afraid of who he'll tell or anything. he wont judge me. he just listens. i love that.
i got to see my wifey on sunday. shes the best ever. i love her with all my heart & shes just the cutest thing ever. our honey moon is gonna be freaking sweet. i cant wait.
my shrink is amazing & i love her she is always there when i need her. even tho we barely talk anymore [which needs to change, soon] i know i could go to her & she'd be there to help me. i love her. i hope she knows that im there for her whenever she needs me but im not sure she knows it. 31 more days & we'll basically be inseperable. i cant wait.
i love you ♥
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brandi im sorry for what i had earlier. im just pised that sean is calling me a slut & stuff & you act like you dont care. i mean im not a slut. i told the truth. hes the one who lied. & he even said that calling me a slut made him feel better about himself. its bullshit. i hate him so much. but im sorry for saying you dont trust me cause thats not it. im just pised at him & took it out on you. im sorry. i love you bran