Its over
For everyone who bothers to read this, yes, Mel and I aren't together anymore.
1yr and 7months. Good times.
It's been rough and whatever.
So recently I've been having a great time hanging out with my closest friends.
It's been truly amazing, and excactly what I've needed since my heartbreak
back in Oct. '06. They've supported me and well, I can't stress enough
how much i love them. (they know who they are.) Also, I've met an incredible
person, who to my surprise has been through just as much crap that I've been goin'
through, if not, worse. I won't lie, small feelings have developed for her.
Though I haven't truly acted upon my feelings until recently, lately,
I just feel like its blowing up in my face, you know? Maybe im just taking
it way too seriously. Maybe shes scared of whats become. Maybe she has feelings
developed for me too? Maybe she doesn't? Hmph..
-sighs-
What a bitch, 'eh? Luck, that is. I find someone new to share my inner emotions,
and now its like they don't even want to talk to me. It's bullshit, and so disappointing.
Hah, and I can't just take my normal, "whatever" approach.
I actually care.
& as usual, I'm left with fucking questions.
Fucking retarded shit.
Its funny, I'm sure this will reach the most random of eyes. Lol.
I have a lot more to stress upon this situation, but I won't.
It's not cool, and I rather draw. It's silly, but whatever.
I can't, and won't be bitter towards her.
I hope its just she needs time to think about it,
even though it seems like she isn't going to. (>_<)
Good Ridence.
I put my feelings on the chopping block, and sure enough
I'm already feeling the Insecurity that is the knife
as it cuts my gay ass feelings in half.
Okay, I need to relax now.
Well, thank you for reading my crap.
Take it easy, yo.
-[Del]-